-The Journey-

2010-02-28T22:54:00.001+08:00

looks like its been a long time since i blog

dont really have time man

its already the last day of CNY and things have been moving fast this year
not very fast but at least its already March tomorrow already!

weather is so fuckingggg hot these days

out from the shower and im already sweating

WTF

RAIN RAIN RAIN!

22nd birthday passed with my lovely girl

my 3rd birthday with her already man

thanks baby!

as simple as it seems, but i could see the time and thought she put into it.

=))

P/S: please dont take my sunshine away... =D

2010-01-24T19:46:00.001+08:00

throwing whatever weights im lifting off my hands when im done.

and yes, im fucking pissed and fustrated at how they are destroying every single dumbbell we use to have.

had to quarrell with the instructor again.

the gym once had 30kg dumbells which are the heaviest, and now we are only left with 25kg.

whats worse??

im even told that the dumbells would only be left with 20kgs.

they might as well make it a all ladies gym.

this is so fucking ridiculous that i even requested a fucking refund for my membership which i renewed recently.

it could be the management that initiated it or the fellow instructor that did it, but whatever it is its still...FUCKED UP!

have already consider changing to cali to train, i'll see if im able to get some promotional rates.

its so hard to survive with this little allowance let alone choose the gym i wan to train in...

anyway

musclewar was a blast yesterday.

held at NUS with decent lightings and a great show.

it feels great to be supporting your frens on stage

realy damn cool and excited.
so great to see new champions especially when they are your frens!

as of now
im posted to lim chu kang camp 2.
as a storeman.
lucky me, never even get to stay in.

gotta thank my OC for his understanding man!
pheww!

goodbyee 2009

2009-12-31T21:32:00.001+08:00

a year passes real quick
back in 2008, i was still in cloud nine coming off from a victory in the junior nationals.
but now, im here feeling fucked up, desperately anticipating for my PINK IC.
a thing which im happy for is i'm so motivated to get my certification, went for the CPR course this past sunday and i'm looking forward to the next course;BEC.
though cashflow is definitely a problem, so im gonna wait for chinese new year when the angbaos come in to enroll for the next course..

so here it is, farewell 2009
its never the happiest year in my life.

why?

its a year i lose my fucking freedom to do something i hate but still cant escape from.

its a year i realise how fucking stingy the government is with the fucking low allowance yet such expensive living in this country.

its a year which really taught me to remain strong and brave through all shit just to get pass the fucking complusory 2 years.

enough of the fucking complains and although 2010 may not be any better too, but here i am, still willing to welcome the year 2010!!

2009-12-13T21:29:00.000+08:00

had a real filling dinner at Aston's

didnt went to suntec for it, but rather a foodcourt at Yew Tee

coffeeshop pricing, restaurant quality

fucking worth it man, im loving beef

every week i make sure i get a serving of steak

loving it!

just found out theres so many festives coming up

xmas, new year's eve, anniversary

not forgetting chinese new year and valentine crash on the same day.

fuck, im just so broke these days.

maybe i'll just pick a couple of it to celebrate thats all.

just applied for my CPR course

its just a step to get my ass going for fitness instructor certification.

hope all goes well, shal make use of the weekends i have to pursue something i love.

heeeeHAAAa

2009-11-28T17:53:00.004+08:00

guess im gonna change camp or places again

they just found out that my PES status and 'job' doesnt match

damnit, im just hoping for the best right now

hopefully i'll get posted somewhere great...

it took them 2months to find out that there was something wrong...

the so called "EFFICIENCY" of the s-a-f

dont make me laugh man...

14th November

-Night Of Tunes-

her work place performance night with the little kids/students of hers

the kids were cute and very adorable

overall the entire performancer quite good also la, they are still kids, cant expect much from them, just appreciate what they sing or play enough already, after all they are so adorable that you wont even be bothered with how bad they sing.

=D

Getting There...

106kg currently

still 4kg shy from my aim.

big, round, bloated, fat whatever you guys can call it, i wouldnt be bothered anyway.

HAHAHA

still trying ways to increase my weight, which is kinda hard due to NS, i've done everything i could keeping my budget to a minimum, guess its still an accomplishment for me to hit this weight instead of my initital aim of 110kg...

on a bright side, theres still at least 10 weeks for me to work towards my aim, before i get diet down after chinese new year!!

wooo!

2009-11-08T20:23:00.003+08:00

time passes real quick

6mths have passed
1.5yrs more to go before i get done with this so called "NATIONAL SERVICE"
had a really wonderful night yesterday with my little girl
got almost the entire night to ourselves
its been so long since we get to enjoy teeny weeny bits of our lives together
=)

i've got some plans next year

just praying hard that i'll be able to get in the HeartSaver CPR course and get certified by end of this year.

thats just the start of my plan, more to come.

all i need is money to get things done..

hopefully my parents will help me out on this...

2009-10-31T13:51:00.002+08:00

its the good old bulking season and im at 104kg now!

just 6kg shy from my target!

feeling really heavy and round

my plan is to do a semi-dieting phase after chinese new year and plan my next move thereafter.

as for NS life,

although im a PES E9L9, but im still posted to HQ Air Force Training Command as a armament technician.

initially i was so eager to revocate to be a clerk, but for now, i guess i'll just let nature take its course.

since they didnt revocate me as a clerk, i shall just continue my jobscope till new posting order comes.

hahaa

friday was my first day at HQ AFTC

althought its damn far from bukit panjang, but doesnt matter.

a direct bus to eunos from pending lrt, followed by another bus to my camp takes only an hour.

the life is pretty great at there too, stay out vocation too.

which is why i dont wish to be a clerk for now

the office for us is air-conditioned too, what more can i expect!

the only down side over there which i could think of is there isnt any early fall out, everyone goes home punctually as stated in the daily routine orders.

HAHAHA

'MJ's - This Is It'

movie is filling up damn fast, hopefully i'll be able to catch it later

damn, im so broke that i could not even do online booking.

im starting to get addicted to MJ songs too, my girl and i even felt like buying one his DVD; History on films.

but nah, didnt get it, thought the $7.50could be spend on something more useful.

2009-10-19T22:59:00.000+08:00

went to train real early this morning

despite its an off day, woke up at 6.30am and got my arse in the gym by 10am.

shiiiooookkk

and im now rotting away waiting for get a good night sleep!

anyway

guess its time to settle my stuff.

its taking so damn long, you just cant trust anyone to get things done for you.

i wish to go out of course now, i dont even have the mood to work anymore.

all i think about is getting my stuff settled and get posted out quickly.
fuck damn it.

2009-10-09T20:25:00.000+08:00

how cool it is to fufill my own dreams

hopefully all goes well and let me train/eat and live my NS life happily ever after

no R.e.s.e.r.v.i.s.T is what im looking forward to.

=D

anyway

just found out that next year chinese new year falls on the 14 & 15th febuary

valentine's day too!

double double joy..

time passes so fast, a minute passed is a minute closer to ORD!

2009-09-27T19:30:00.002+08:00

spent my weekends morning watching the live webcast of MR OLYMPIA 2009, as usual im a JAY CUTLER FAN!

damn, the whole competition is so tough, almost everyone looked their best and its so hard to judge who will win.

but the moment when Jay stepped on stage, i knew hes gonna win it this time.

hes in his best shape ever compared to the years before...

a new hair cut and a new record in the history of the bodybuilding world. no one have lose and win it back again in the records.

he's not only huuuggeee but also ripped to the bone!

Jay is the man!!

one day i must go over and attend the event!

hopefully it will still be in las vegas!

2009-09-20T20:03:00.000+08:00

back home this morning from guard duty on saturday.

the only shit was its 24hrs and its so hard to pass, i read through the entire newspaper and thats how bored i am in the guardroom.
lucky i managed to bring in 3 meals of mine and 4 servings of protein shakes with oats, if not i'm definitely going to starve to death over there.

mosquitos just loves me, kept on attacking me when im sleeping.

finally this month's duty is over, hopefully it will maintain at the rate of 1-2 duties a month

=D

anyway
life is pretty great at my current camp
just found my favourite canteen
at a reasonable price with a huge serving!
western food for the win!
they even have sirloin steak and mix grill man
its going to be great for my bulking phase, damn shiok
i'm gonna be there at least once a week to get the calories in!
MUAHAHAHAHA

good old off-season...

2009-09-05T13:00:00.009+08:00

at times i've been wondering, when can i compete again??
i wish to do it again but not now during NS, the messed up times for my meals and the little amount of allowance... sian..

so now, i decided to look at the brighter side of life and go with plans of mine for this 2yrs of NS life.

after talking to my fellow training buddies about it, decided that i'll take this 2yrs and bulk up as much as possible to pack on the mass. The reason is i know i needed to be a whole lot bigger in order to compete again in the next level, its not easy neither is it tough, i believe i can do it again!

This 2yrs will allow me to bring up lagging bodyparts of mine which i've been trying to improve on right now... so ya as of now, i'm tipping the scale at around 101kg, and im aiming towards 110kg this time round.. not sure how long it will take, but ya, i'll get to 110kg before i decide my next move!

i'm just gonna make sure, i'll be bigger and better the next time i step on stage!
yeeeeeha!!! nobody gonna stop me!!!

2009-08-29T13:05:00.002+08:00

seems like blogger has a problem when posting, theres no more templates??? cant even upload a pic up here..

anyway, it just feels so wierd to be posted to a new camp, without the welfare we used to get when we are still in the training institute. just cant wait to be attached out to somewhere nearer to my house. As for now, its just about me adapting to a new place again, i hate changes and i really hate it, luckily my diet isnt screwed upside down yet.

im so damn poor now, i dont even have the mood or rather MONEY to go to town and check ION out, i wanna buy clothes but its seriously so hard to save up these days, just meeting my girl for a decent meal on saturdays is all i could afford for now.. sighh.... 1.5weeks more for next aloowance...damn it!

2009-08-19T20:20:00.003+08:00

3.5hours more to my little girl's 21st birthday!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY!

course is coming to an end next wednesday, cant bear to leave this place man. one of the best training institute in the army already. sian, dont even know how life will be when i get posted out. hopefully all things go well and im still able to eat sleep lift! HAHAHA!

and damn, life is bored without a camera phone. cant take pics when you suddenly wish to, cant take pics when you didnt bring your digicam. oh fuck man...

2009-08-09T10:39:00.001+08:00

had dinner with my girl family and relatives last night

purpose of the dinner was an early celebration for my little girl 21st birthday

im like so excited the entire day man, just so afraid that i'll get clumsy and spill something or break something. although not my first time eating with her family, but its my first time with her relatives! her relatives are nice to me and introduced themselves to me la, they know me before i even know them. thats so wierd, all thanks to facebook!

HAHAHAH

right now, im feeling like a puffed up teddy bear
i've hit 102KG on the scale with my gym attire on
i feel like a fucking balloon now, i wish i could diet now, but my schedule is just so packed, i hardly got time to sit down to even read the papers during weekdays. as bad as it sounds, but im still enjoying my life as i get to do the things i love, i seriously cant complain anymore.

today is national day, but im not even feeling the atmosphere of it.
its so wierd, maybe thats what happen as the years passed and i grow older.
everything changes, im now contemplating if i should go and study again or go straight to the working society after my NS, if i were to study again, it wont be at Ngee Ann, but rather i'll try to enroll into Sports & Exercise Science in Republic Poly.
i just wish to do something i'm interested in...

shall see how it goes ba, so many things to re-consider if im back to study, need to get a part time job to survive also.
fuck it.
HOW HOW HOW???!?!?

2009-08-01T21:55:00.002+08:00

all thanks to weekend guard duty tomorrow. i cant even enjoy my sunday. its gonna be a 24hours duty till monday morning and get back to work in the afternoon. damn... but i shall not complain so much since im lucky enough to be sitting in the office and picking up calls/issueing visitor passes. HAHAHAHA

i seriously hate it when my diet gets fucked. kept on consoling myself that it will only be for 1 day! 1 day!

2009-07-19T16:41:00.003+08:00

something is missing in my life for these upcoming 5 days...

and i'm missing her even though its not even 1 day yet.

so far far away from me!

damn...

hopefully time passes fast this week!

2009-07-12T15:35:00.003+08:00

just got back from arms training

shiok man
able to train 5 days a week is a blessing to me
current weight is fluctuating between 99kg-99.5kg
just a few more grams to 100kg!
HAHAHA!

cant wait for tomorrow night to come

gonna go fry my legs and make my calves grow tomorrow!
=D

today is sunday but i dont even have the mood to have fun
must prepare all my uniform
must polish my damn boots
but fuck care already, polish till i tulan, using liquid kiwi these days.
fucking shiok man...

easy peasy...
MUAHAHAHAHAHA
"if you are not cheating, you are not trying"

2009-07-05T20:13:00.003+08:00

transformers is fucking nice

watched it with my girl ytd
damn, hopefully there will be another one in the near future again.
=D

anyway
im officially undergoing the weapon technician course.. so cool man, 12 guns for me to learn, repair and explore but it is a bitch when it comes to cleaning.
but afterall, im still pretty happy to be as a weapon tech instead of repairing those shitass tanks.

been watching michael jackson's videos lately
just find its really a pity that hes gone just like this and i didnt learn to appreciate his songs until he was gone. after listening songs after songs of his, i truely respect this genius as one of the best ever and he'll be my idol from now on.
guess i gonna learn moonwalk and use it in my competition posing routine next time...

HAHAHA

every song of his comes with a sensational feeling
every move of his on stage is fucking slick and sweet.

guess there wont be anyone that can come close to what he achieved.
R.I.P

2009-06-28T09:49:00.004+08:00

bodybuilding, my girl and army

trying to balance everything out now too; its tough but i believe i can do it.

first week at my new vocation
nothing of a woo-ha

so many breaks are given to us daily
9am - teabreak

12pm - lunch

3pm - teabreak
5.30pm - book out!
at least im able to consume my meals now, and i've been packing meals there since day 1.
=)

anyway
i'm back in the gym training hard again

current weight is 95kg
its the good old bulking phase and i wish i can make full use of it, although army may be a factor hindering my progress, but fuck it. i will do it for whatever it takes.

lets see if im able to do it to reach 100kg..
i'm back for redemption!
HAHAHA

2009-06-19T19:56:00.007+08:00

alright,

back from a long break and its time to report back next monday. So far i've enjoyed my block leave and i hate going back to camp.
training and eating normally again then suddenly it may be disrupted again...

damn shit feeling.
no wonder coach once said

"you'll be losing muscle and gaining fats in the army"

how true... fuck it...

anyway,
i'm being posted to Ayer Rajah Camp as a technician which is to repair tanks... The only thing that i like is its stay out which means i can go home everyday and hopefully hit the gym too. the only thing which i hope wont happen frequently is late release from camp!

HAHAHA

oh ya!
another problem i got is my meals... !

i know im fucking picky and troublesome but i just hate it when my diet gets mess around like fuck.. Heard from my fren that there will be tea-breaks in the morning and another in the late afternoon, if that is for real i'll get to bodybuild like i use to already..

3 meals will be easily solved in there!

shall not have so high hopes yet, go in see see first...
guess i shall not complain much since i get to sleep on my own comfy bed every night!!
WOOOO!!

2009-06-09T16:36:00.002+08:00

P.O.C LOH!

finally BMT had come to an end...

as much as i hate NS, i cant deny that i've made several good friends in there and enjoyed the stay with them through the 7weeks.

field camp was seriously the shit!
4days in the forest, eating whatever i can, 2 packs of combat ration at one go. some wont even eat and pass it to me, yup, it taste bad but it wont hurt me either. i am what i am now with a reason and i dont fucking care how bad it taste, i'll choke it down just for the sake of getting the calories in to at least try my best to maintain whatever i have. thats who i am and what i live for....

the best part of BMT is when we trashed other companies during games day, we were the champions for tug of war and the champions for mascot competition. shame on those guys who looked down on us as PES C!
especially those mohawk guys, irritating faggs.
HAHAHA

so here i am, with 2 weeks of leave before i get posted to my new unit. finally i can get a huge BREAK from those junk food in tekong. but i still gotta thank my friends/buddies who 'donated' their bits and pieces of meat to me every meal.

as for now, i'll be going back to my usual diet and training while waiting for my posting, thats the best i can do for now...
sigh....

2009-05-15T22:58:00.002+08:00

3wks had past

4wks more to go.

i hate army, but there isnt anything i can do about it.
finally i got a confirmed status yesterday after they did an x-ray on my spine. its concluded that my spine is out of alignment from my pelvic bone.

thats what the medical officer told me.
how great!!
im officially excused from RMJ, HEAVYLOAD, UNIFORM and can only do light duties!

HAHAHAHAHAH!
hell yeah!!

next week is my field camp, 4 days 3 nights in the fucking forest... i dont know how am i gonna survive through that with all the shit food provided, but at least im aware that i will only be there to observe but not participate in the activities due to my back injury. the only thing that sucks is that i'll be feeding mosquitos there since i will only be in my t-shirt/shorts instead of uniform... hopefully no camo cream for me also
damn...

at times i'm so stressed up in the army.

i dunno why, seriously its driving me crazy at times, but i kept telling myself to go through it once and for all.
i nearly wanted to go 'Out Of Training' as i couldnt stand the shit thats going on anymore, i see 5yrs of my hardwork being wasted off in just a few weeks, how depressing it can get, nobody will understand how im feeling.
as of last week, i lost 3kg
fucking hell.
to some it isnt alot, but 3kg lost is fucking obvious on me.
fuck

i get homesick
i miss my mum
i miss my little girl
and i miss my friends along with the weights
just 4 more fucking weeks is all i had to go through and hopefully things will be better after i get posted out.

sigh....
when can i train and eat normally again....
im sick of those rubbish like food in the army, only on a few lucky days, i get big drums sticks for my meals.
fuck, and i cant stand the sight of hokkien mee, cha kway tiao and fried rice in the fucking morning for breakfast!!!!

its fucking disgusting, thank god there is still bread for me which i'm still able to choke it down.
seriously, my fucking diet food is much more better than those meals served in tekong with so much gravy and make me feel lik puking after eating. fucked up!

2009-04-23T21:07:00.008+08:00

right,
its just 12hours from now that i'll be in tekong with my parents.

today has been a really emotional day for me
accompanied my girl for almost 1/2 of the day, helped her assemble a new table, eat our lunch/dinner together, enjoying the time we have before i enlist tomorrow.

shes been the girl that is always by my side for almost 1.5yrs, going through most of the ups and downs in my life last year.

maybe this explains why i feel so sad when i left her just now.

i'll miss ya baby!!

another thing that has been bothering me is bodybuilding
how the fuck am i gonna train in there? how the fuck am i gonna eat in there?? how the fuck am i gonna survive starving through the day???

it sucks to the core that it takes months to gain every ounce, every pound of muscle, but to lose it just takes merely a few weeks or days
i dunno how the fuck am i gonna handle it

people can laugh at me for all they wan when i shrink or become fat, but i'll be back for redemption in a while!
i swear!!
fuck!

as i packed my stuff yesterday, it seems very little actually if you follow by the list given, but not for me man.
i'm bringing in 2 tins of oats, 1 tub of protein and a box of Oreos , hopefully i can make full use of them and save my body!

anyway, heres pics of my last day at work
thanks Jenny for bringing her digicam on that day!

Jenny with me and the big fish! Kimmy!
customer's favourite girl!

Jian Hong!
one of the jokers who i fool around with in the kitchen..
JianHong, Shaun, Jenny and May!
With our good supervisor Justin who orders my favourite 'nata de coco' for us to eat! and now he doesnt have to worry bout his salmon everyday. cos i'm no longer there!

My favourite area.
i'll miss it.. serious...
fish n co, although very stingy but a really nice and memorable place to work at.
=)

as i blog this post, i feel so depress yet fustrated at the same time, i hate NS, i dunno how am i gonna love it man.
dont tell me NS is to mature me or serve the nation for pride and honour, i dont need these bullshit to grow me up.
fuck it man.

take care everyone and i'll be back soon!
BYE!

Last Day @ Work

2009-04-16T16:23:00.003+08:00

yup, yesterday's my last day at work
i recalled the time when i told LCP that i'll work at fish n co till my NS, and indeed its true.

2.5years have passed and i'm now getting ready for enlistment next friday. theres just so many memories of the place, i'll definitely miss fish n co jurong point!

many many great frens that i've made and the jokes we shared while working, all these will serve as great memories and hopefully years down the road, we'll gather and catch up with each other again.

yesterday was also the first day at work that i took so many pictures with frens with the instant camera, all along i only had 1 pic of me in the whole collage of pictures at the entrace, but now.. i've got a total of 4!!
best is there are still many pics taken with frens digital cam and hp!

HAHAHA

so far, i've only got 2 pics which i'll share with you guys that are taken with my hp. i'll upload others when i receive it!

only a couple pics
the office which i'll always go in and slack under the aircon

Small grill/Big grill
My favourite working station.
the place where i'll stand and eat my meals while working
the place where i'll cook my salmon to eat
99% i'm always with this 2 grill
sorry, have to part with you now
i'm sure you'll be taken care of nicely too.
=(

besides idiots who doesnt work properly, its been a really great and pleasant working experience with everybody.
I'll Miss You, Fish n Co Jurong Point!!

oh ya, gotta thank LCP for introducing me this job.
not for him, i wont have the chance to work there and i may not be who i am today with the trophies in my house
no money = no bodybuilding

anyway,
heres a picture at Yen Kiat's 21st Birthday Party last friday.

1 week away from NS
i'm really depress now
a few more updates in the next few days and i'm gone.
damn!
fuck fuck fuck!

2009-04-05T19:34:00.002+08:00

spent my saturday eating and having fun
bukit timah market satays, carrot cake and sugar cane drinks.

10 sticks chicken
10 sticks pork
should have tried some mutton.

guess satay is my favourite food now!
as you can see, im enjoying my fucking life off now!
fucking NS!

2009-04-01T13:30:00.003+08:00

Swedish Meat Balls!

went Ikea on sunday with my little girl, bought a few stuff for her room and had our dinner there!
first was hotdog buns followed by meat balls!
i swear i've never eaten these for years!
its time for me to feel fat again before i diet again!
HAHAHA

just got this pic
Vincent & me @ CDANS Bodybuilding Championships did his colouring for him that day
turn out pretty decent and nice
=D

the clock is indeed ticking very fast
like LCP hav said a few weeks passes damn fast
its now 3wks away only.
HOLYSHIT!!

2009-03-28T13:15:00.003+08:00

been dealing with a back injury

im reluctant to go to e doctor now

guess i just have to be careful while training and wait for NS then i'll report to the medical officer!

how brilliant i am.
=D

had black pepper chicken chop at Xin Wang cafe ytd night.
i cant believe its my first time eating there also.
its to my taste and im loving it
at least its isnt deep fried.

HAHAHA

fucking NS is just spoiling my plans
theres so much things that i wanna buy but im afraid i wont be able to use or wear them frequently
guess i'll stop work 2wks before enlistment and enjoy my fucking life off. i wanna watch the new jackie's chan movie thats coming up soon! i wanna eat popcorn while watching movie also! i wanna eat sushi buffet!
as of now, its 4wks till NS.

FUCK YOU NS!
_!_

2009-03-18T14:33:00.004+08:00

im a H.A.P.P.Y man!
2 more days of work and its a great weekend ahead!
California Pizza & Shopping with my little girl on friday!
Strongman & Bodybuilding Championships on Saturday!

hopefully all goes well!
=D

oh ya!

i can't believe its my first time at Ya Kun Kaya Toast
HAHAHA

2009-03-11T14:31:00.008+08:00

weight is pretty much the same now
even though i'll be enlisting real soon but i'm not missing any workout sessions, not missing any meals and still sleeping plenty for recovery.
its what i love and what i wish i can live for...

sunday is always a happy day for me!
cos its arms training!
=))

hopefully when im in NS, i'll still be happy and be able to smile again like in the pictures
HAHAHA

OH YA!
and i just read the papers today
Singapore is the 10th most costly city in the world!
so true so true...
FUCK DAMN IT!

2009-03-06T10:00:00.006+08:00

got a sorethroat now
i dont even feel lik talking much
it seems lik im losing my voice

Pics From Back Training Last Week

"Hi!"
"its time to row!"

7 weeks left to NS
which means im left with 7 times to train each bodypart
its so damn near
sighh...
=(

Happy Go Lucky

2009-02-28T12:29:00.007+08:00

21st birthday just came n go.
had 2 simple celebrations

1 with my relatives last sunday
basically just cut cake, receive ang baos and dinner together.
they just couldnt think of what to get for me because:

size may not fit me
im not a typical guy next door
latest gadgets isn't something i need

therefore angbaos are the best way they got for me!
HA!

last but not least
a celebration on the day of my birthday with my girl
she got me a watch which i love
been like years since i wore a watch

a whole day spent just with her by my side
simple but im very very happy already

My Cake from BAKERZIN
ultra-delicious ice-cream like choc cake

Oops!
my hands are just too big that i grab it all!
MUAHAHAHA

Valentine!

2009-02-16T20:25:00.022+08:00

My Valentine Song

Valentine was great!
its our 2nd time celebrating it!
broke my diet for the whole day too
no prepacked meals of mine, no bag
just enjoyed the entire day..
=)

went Marina for the movie Valkyrie @ 1.15pm
Carl's Jr. SUPERSTAR and Popcorn during the movie!
not a very nice movie to me
all i could remember from the movie is
Tom Cruise is the guy without 1 eye
and Hitler is the guy with a huge ugly moustache
HAHAHAHAHA

headed to Suntec for a meal of mine
PEPPER LUNCH!
the price cost double of wat foodcourt sells!
fucking hell, but i ate it anyway..
no choice, i need some rice to fill my stomach

My chicken/salmon set

Pepper Lunch without adding pepper is so fake.
So i added shitoad of it to make it genuine!

Next up!
a Sumptuous dinner @ TONY ROMA's
queue was pretty damn long
45mins of waiting time

Our Breadstick with Garlic Butter Spread

Preparing the garlic bread!

My Mushroom Soup, Her Potatoe Soup

My Gentle Breeze, Her Cherry Breeze

Now its the main courses
I ordered Sirloin steak
while she ordered the Chicken/Ribs Combo

my JUICY & TENDER Sirloin!

the REAL deal, St. Louis Honey Pork Ribs!

Sirloin Steak & the St. Louis Pork Ribs is the best!
the chicken is only so-so, kinda dry inside

Overall
the food, service & ambience is good!
we didnt even had any appetizers or deserts
lucky we didnt!
i was even helping my little girl
finish up her chicken in the end too
HA!

anyway
received a BIG package last friday
its from a contest which i won at ANIMALPAK
im among the 100 winners
for their $250USD in-store credit.
WOOO!
altogether i got 7 items

AnimalPak 88s (Multi-Vitamins)
Mesh Cap
Tank Top
"I pay my dues everyday" T-shirt
"Squat til you puke" T-shirt
Sweater
Zip Sweater

these shall be my 21st Birthday presents!
HAHAHA

2009-02-11T12:16:00.009+08:00

Check out my interview!
Click it!! Click it!!

Interview with Mr SINGAPORE Jr. 2008
Courtesy of Nutri-Forefront!
Thank you!
=D

alright...

chinese new year is over

isnt really exciting afterall

but i do miss eating yu sheng and pineapple tarts

its like once a year to eat that only

just found out

i didnt get to eat chocolate/strawberry love letters.
those are my favourite man.

damn! missed it!

currently

i can say im totally stress free
except that i just dread enlistment day
its either meeting up my girl

or just heading to the gym to blast thru my workout
not forgetting working at fishy
heard that there wont be bonus for us this yr!
hope the info is not real!
fucked up man!

the situation at work is so bad
cutting cost here and there
but i tink i shall not complain much
since im still getting 90% of my schedule
HAHAHAHA

before i end my damn post
happy celebrations to everybody for valentine's day!
byeeeeeeeee

2009-02-02T20:48:00.006+08:00

finally got the $$ to develop my competition pics
see, im not bluffing when im cash tight
total of 158 photos
total cost of $55.30
memories memories memories
the feelings is just so strong whenever i browse through the photos
the stage, the spotlights, the winning moment

I'LL BE BACK! BETTER THAN EVER!

anyway
trained legs today
todays training was great yet painful
i dun even feel lik walking around now
im either using my laptop or lying down on my bed
seems like 45mins nap just now didnt help..

currently weighing between 97KG & 98KG
breathing is pretty heavy these days
and snoring is what my bros hate in the night
but im loving it
AHAH!

oh ya!
valentine is coming...!!
IM MISSING MY LITTLE GIRL BADLY!!
WOOOOOOO!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

2009-01-25T23:09:00.010+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY!
GONG XI FA CAI!
=D

had my reunion dinner hours ago
full of meat, just so fabulous!
but now, im so sick of it!
HAHA

MuscleWar Pics!
With Zijian!
finally after 5 yrs of hardwork
he got his GOLD
CONGRATS!

its so sunny at Vivo's Aphitheatre just so happy to see a fren clinch a gold
even if its other placing
its still an amazing feeling for me
dunno how to describe la
HA!

anyway
been rotting since the reunion dinner
nth to do man
online online online
I DONT LIKE TV
DUNNO WHY EITHER
HAHAHAHAHA

tml is the day!
red packets!!! foooood!!! visiting!!!
WOOOOOOO!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYBODY!
ENJOY THE YEAR OF OX!

2009-01-21T14:54:00.006+08:00

MuscleWar last saturday was great
Congrats to Zijian for Winning his Category!
Congrats to Farhan for 2 Silver Medals in a day!
pics to come soon!

anyway
been really tight in cash these days

only enough to survive me through this week

just so lucky tt next wk is the chinese new year

time to collect ang baos again man

cant wait to eat all those festive goodies too
little girl gave me a bottle of pineapple tarts

so tempting & tasty that i cant stop eating them
and now, its all gone
HAHAHA

am not working today

looks lik business bad, they cut cost
cut our part timers schedule
so clever, so now full timers suffer
fucking piece of company

i'll have to miss my salmon for today
but i'll go hunt for it again tml when i work!

MUAHAHAHAHA

i shall rot at home the entire day with my meals and laptop
ZZzZZz

2009-01-14T14:54:00.002+08:00

boring wednesday

basically its just a rest day for me

except that gotta work later in the evening

business have been real bad these days

been requested to even start work at 6.30pm ytd.

due to the low sales the entire day
but ya, who cares
as long as i still get paid!
HAHAHAHA

just cant wait for saturday
MuscleWar 2009 @ VivoCity, 2pm.
bsides supporting frens who are competing in the event

gonna enjoy myself that day with food & shopping!!
Carl's Jr? LongJohnSilver? Korean Cuisine?
WOOOO!

2009-01-08T21:44:00.015+08:00

time really flies

today is already my 1st yr anniversary with my girl

though not much celebration, but we enjoyed each other companion with some decent food.

i'm just so in love with the almond jelly she makes!
yummy yummy!

as for bodybuilding wise
am under training and guidance by Singapore's
One & Only MR UNIVERSE; Azman Abdullah !

2006 Nationals
Mr UNIVERSE & ME!

though im only there on mondays & tuesdays due to work commitments
i still gotta say its really my honour to be training under him
the workout is just so intensed
yet its short and simple
all controlled movements
set by set, rep by rep
feeling every single bit of pain.

hopefully it will develope my physique to the next level!
=D

oh ya!
woke up this morning and i saw a plate of cha kway tiao
i just cant imagine how the hell my family can eat that in the morning.
it certainly wont feel good(for me at least!) eating tt shit right in the morning.
imagine how oily it is all over your mouth.
YUCKS

i rather eat my usual breakfast of

12 egg whites
2 yolks
100g oats, 50g raisins
cup of hot coffee

taste so much better than cha kway tiao
and im happy eating it!
HAHAHAHA

anyway
yesterday night was the most hardcore farewell bash ever in our outlet.
its 'Teck' last day and we decided to give him a farewell bash unlike before.
ice water, plain flour, tartar sauce, chilli dip, garlic lemon butter and rubbish chute were prepared.
i was like WTF when i was drenched in garlic sauce
damn it stinks and i cant wash up.

The Finale
Me, Shaun, Teck, Jianhong, Ivan

these guys is what made me a happy man working there
the teamwork we got is just beyond imagination.
unlike some dick(s) who are close with the supervisor and gets off easy without doing any shit at work.
but luckily these ppl are already being marked down and wont really get to work much these days.
WOOO!

HAPPY 2009 EVERYONE!

2009-01-01T20:09:00.007+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY!
2008 is gone with lotsa memories with me
good & bad its still the best year of my life so far..

The Very Very Memorable Of 2008

Fell in love with a little girl that is able to accept my lifestyle
Got dropped out from school and thought its the end of the world
Dieting & dieting trying to keep on with the unconfirmed competition date
Dreams came true, hardwork paid off; National Champ & Mr Singapore Jr. 2008

And ya, of cos theres welcoming 2009
counting down towards 2009 was spent in a rather simple yet special way

had CARNIVORE @ VivoCity with frens
the most expensive buffet i ever eaten in my life
but its well spent with frens at e same time.

Group Pic

Proceeded to Dempsey Hill for countdown
went into "HOUSE" for the countdown

thereafter took pics, pics and pics!

Before leaving Dempsey Hill
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
headed to Rochor Beancurd for supper
home sweet home after
met up with old frens, made new frens, happy happy in the end.
thats how my new year came and go.
HAHAHAHA

anyway.
some pics last sunday; 28th Dec 2008
after arms workout @ 92kg
HAHAHAH

i just feel so depress when the thought of enlisting this april comes into my mind.
not trying to be arrogant or whatever
but this is by far the best i've been and it just sucks to tink that it will all be torn down when i get enlisted.
although i believe i still can slowly get back on track again
but it still SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS!!
ARGG! FUCK IT!

2008-12-27T13:17:00.010+08:00

as promised.

me in LIVING colours

click "watch in HIGH QUALITY"
for a better/clearer video

HAHAHA

My Posing Routine

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9KhwPVRAWbU

WelterWeight Comparisons/Judging

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EE8-SlMRqXQ

WelterWeight PoseDown

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pdG3CZ8rPrI

Mr Singapore Jr. Comparisons/Judging

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4n5mdnfKkdg

Mr Singapore Jr. PoseDown

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yKMkeBsKK_E

anyway
X'Mas Eve was pretty simple
its just my girl and me

Suki Sushi Buffet
Shopped for clothes and shoes
Watch choir perfomance at Chijmes
Shopped around again
Anderson's Ice-Cream

Slacking @ Raffles City

Suntec's Anderson Ice-Cream

Peachy Mango Smoothie
Cafe Mocha
Happy Brownie with ice-cream
Signature CheeseCake

the X'Mas tree is too tall
summore so many ppl walking around so its impossible to take a full view

eating whatever food i feel like eating
i'm enjoying my life right now
my family cant stand it anymore
cursing and swearing they wish im still dieting
they bought a pack of Ferrero Rochers last night and its gone this morning
all into my big stomach
HAHAHAHA!

its only 2 wks after the Nationals
but nah, 2 wks is enough already
guess after this wk
i gonna control my cravings for junk food
i'll still gonna enjoy tiny bits and pieces of food
but in moderation!
CONTROL CONTROL CONTROL!

National Juniors Bodybuilding Championships 2008

2008-12-21T10:14:00.033+08:00

here i am to wrap things up.

2008 will be the best year in my life.
it will never be forgotten by me.
a very rocky year for me but paid off in the end.

13th December 2008
not only did i wont 2 titles, it was the day which i met my girl for 1 year.
so its a triple joy for me

till now im still living on that very faithful day which i won
the excitement is still so much in me
confident and very motivated to get back on stage in the next few years

4 years is what it took to get me where i wanted.
no one could have imagine the shit i went through along the way.
"I'VE PAID MY DUES EVERYDAY"

this is the quote i found that will best describe me

still remembering the days when i just started
i didnt train just for the sake of growing big.
i trained to compete, the very first day i went to the gym, i already knew what i wanted; to be a competive bodybuilder.
i wanna stand on stage and battle it out with others.

when i told ppl i wanted to be a competitive bodybuilder.
ppl joke and laugh at me, they must be thinking i'm mad, they didnt even know it actually exist
i've proved them wrong this year.

before i begin with this heavily pictured post
these are the ppl who i wish to thank that have been by my side and supporting me all along.

My Mum

Always believed that i'll make it in this sport whenever my dad looks down on me. The most supportive person ever in my life, bought me my food to let me begin with everything. Borrowed me money when im out of cash for supplementation. I finally made it and i did not disappoint you.
thanks mum!

My Girl
It have been a torture to me, but must have been a nightmare to you the last few weeks towards e comp. My attitude was bad and my heart wasnt with you, all i wanted was the championships so badly that i just cant be bothered bout anything but my own life. We hardly ever meet up the last 2 weeks prior to comp, i was drained and out of energy to tink bout anything but the dream i've been working so hard for these years. Finally everything is over, i'll be able to enjoy life and provide you with more love and happiness to come.

My Training Buddies

Rain or shine, we'll be there helping each other, busting our arse off in the gym, thats what we did to get to where we are today. Without you guys pushing me along the way, standing by to help me set after sets, rep after reps, i wont the champion i am today.

LCP

I finally made it, 4 years is what you guys witnessed in the making of what i am today. Along the way, i still remember you getting pissed and fed-up when i'll ditch basketball games just to go to the gym but im just glad you understand and let me go ahead. Maybe bcos you felt i'm hopeless for bball anyway. HA! Your support along the way was a great help to my succcess at the same time, could be due to your always negative comments, but it doesnt matter, it did help me in a way or other. HAHA

Friends & Others
To my friends like Jin & gang, Sherry, Jianwei, Jeff & gang.. thanks for the constant support and always believing in me. I'm finally not a disappointment this time round.
People who i've missed out but have given me help or support in a way or another, thank you and keep supporting me! HAHAHA!

THANK YOU!

SO NOW!
LET THE PICS DO THE TALKING!

-The Judgement Day-

how i look like at 5am
gonna miss the X'Mas tree on my back

eating my sweet potato
while waiting for weigh-in & registration

In The Pump Room

MingHan & Zijian
great friends, training buddies and helpers on that day

-Pre-Judging-

standing under the sun
keeping the pump and vascularity going
while waiting for my weight category to get called up on stage

the first few seconds on stage
judging begins shortly after.

-Pre-Judging Part 2-

During The Break
Between Pre-Judging & Finals

-Welter Weight Finals-

a shot during my individual 1 min posing routine
i'll post up my video once its in youtube!

-THE POSE DOWN!-
basically just chasing my competitors and being chased by them for the final battle.
The Top 2
Who is it gonna be?
My Dream Finally Came True...
Your Welter Weight Champion!
President of the federation congratulating
and speaking to me about future plans.
Finally..

-Vincent & Me-
moments before going on stage for the Overall

THE OVERALL; JUNIOR MR SINGAPORE

BATTLE OF CHAMPION OF CHAMPIONS

The Line-Up
Champion Of Various Categories

Presenting you.. your very own
Mr SINGAPORE Jr. 2008

Some Pics After The Event.

Train together! Compete Together!

My Ever Supportive Girl.
Loves Loves!
My Priceless Collection

THANK YOU FOR ALL YOUR SUPPORT!!
HAHAHA!

RESULTS! I AM BACK WITH 2 TITLES!

2008-12-17T12:43:00.011+08:00

THE RESULTS!
2008 NATIONAL JUNIORS BODYBUILDING CHAMPIONSHIPS

OVERALL CHAMPION; Mr SINGAPORE Jr.
WELTER WEIGHT CHAMPION!

anyway before i start off with some pics of the comp
i shall show some pics taken this morning
after gaining 6kg from the rebound effects 4 days after nationals!
how cool rite?
HAHAHAHA

im full yet bloated now.
weighing around 90kg in the gym ytd.

phew
what a blast last saturday.
just a quick update with a few pics.
more pics to come next wk or end of this wk!

13th Dec 2008
a day i will remember forever in my life
weighed in at 82.5kg during the registration

everything went well
except that i was holding a tad bit of water in body
that made me sweat like a bitch on stage.

but afterall, i emerged as a champion!
i did not only win 1, but 2 categories!

The Top 3 For Welter Weight
1st Place - ME OF COS!
2nd Place - No. 33
3rd Place - No. 32

Overall Champion
where all champion of all categories compete together in the overall for the
JUNIOR MR SINGAPORE CROWN!

"THE JUNIOR MR SINGAPORE TITLE GOES TO..

COMPETITOR NO. 36.. LEX TAN XUE MING!!"
MUAHAHAHAHAHA!

"this is for all of you that has been supporting me!"
its a crappy pic of me, but ya.. who cares?
u get the idea can liao.
LOL i'll update with more pics in my next post!
gotta go back to work later
cant wait to eat eat eat!
HAHAHAHA

Yours Truly

Mr Singapore Jr. 2008

2 Days Out

2008-12-11T14:36:00.003+08:00

2008 Men's National Junior and 1st Mr Cairnhill Bodybuilding Championships.
Saturday, 13th December @ Cairnhill C.C

(Its just 5mins walk from NEWTON MRT, Exit NEWTON MRT, check out the map near the control station).

Pre-judging starts 11am, Finals at 3pm.

ADMISSION IS FREE!

Come down and support me if you can!

BUT DUN THROW EGGS AT ME IF I LOSE!
MUAHAHA

my last post before the comp
its 2 days out and i've already began carb loading.
damn, finally im not feeling that hungry anymore
able to eat more rice, more eats.
HAHAHA

got painted by my girl ytd
and 1 more coat today by my bro.
im still not dark enough, mayb a few more!

just a few shots!
YA, MY FACE IS STIL NOT PAINTED YET!

i see a shady X'Mas tree on my lower back?
if only my bodyfat is lower it will be all out already.
sigh..
NVM!
WISHING EVERYBODY AN EARLY XMAS!
HAHAHA

WANNA SEE WHAT I HAVE IN STOCK FOR SATURDAY NIGHT?!?!
DON'T BE JEALOUS!

I GONNA EAT THE FUCK OUT OF ALL THESE WHEN IM BACK FROM THE COMP!
HAHAHAHAHAHHAA
WOOOOOOOOO!

ok
thats all
wish me luck ppl
and thanks to those who constantly supporting me!
hopefully i wont disappoint you guys this time round!
take care and i'll be back!
ASTA'LA VISTA!

2008-12-09T07:40:00.007+08:00

alright.
this gonna be my very last few post before e comp
its 8.10am now, just 4 days away.
gonna hit the cardio at 9am
things are still going pretty well as planned

trained shoulders and arms ytd with vincent
feeling drained and low in energy as usual
but we still kept things going
the comp just drives me to e next level

couple of snapshots after the workout
5 Days Out
85kg

main goal now is to hold on to where i am, start the carb loading phase on thursday then dry out for the day of comp.
what i look now may not be what i will look like on stage, be it better, worse or the same.
i'll just have to live and learn and accept the outcome.

overall i'm pretty confident with myself at how things gonna turn out that day but i shall leave everything to e judges and of cos hoping that i wont look like a stick on stage due to my height
HAHAHAHAH

tomorrow will be training back and chest

it will be my last day of training before the comp.

after which i'll be concentrating on the carb loading phase starting thursday all the way till i get on stage. not forgetting getting myself tanned.
HAHA

i hate to say this
i dont like my genetically born structure
im born with a wide hip, thick waist body.
not gonna blame my parents for it but rather i'll say i'll fucking improve on my shoulders and back width in the years to come.
=D

10 Days Out!

2008-12-03T10:52:00.014+08:00

decided to go through all my poses this morning
took the courage to take pics in the sunlight
instead of nice lighting in the gym
had a meal which consist 15g carbs, 50g protein only
you can say im flat, depleted and holding lotsa water
taken around 8.50am just before cardio session

10 Days Out!
86KG

Front Relaxed

Back Relaxed

Front Double Biceps

Lats Spread

Side Chest

Side Triceps

Back Double Biceps

SQUEEZE!

Back Lats Spread

Abs & Thighs
Few More Shots!

How Can Dont Have My Infamous Most Muscular!?
HAHAHAHA!
ROAR!!!

so thats all peepz!
im doing my best as you guys can see
still trying to get a tad bit leaner to be better
gonna do all i can to make sure i'll still be able to at least hold on to where i am now when i re-introduce carbs to fill up my body next thursday all the way till saturday's prejudging. Hopefully things wont get screwed up!
WOOOOOO!

gonna cut my damn hair next tuesday
short hair = small head = bigger body
HAHAHA!

2008-12-02T14:45:00.004+08:00

almost 10 days left.

toughest time to get thru

just cant wait for this wk to pass.
HAHA

weight is at 86kg now.

im feeling alot tighter
but i feel so small man

still hitting e weights as heavy as i can to keep my muscles full.

3 more sessions of cardio left
135mins in total.
thats all i needed to get thru this shit.

BYE!

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2008-11-27T14:17:00.004+08:00

just got back from training

trained back today.

damn tired now man.

had my last meal of rice moments ago.

taken on 25th Nov.
everything is finally coming out.
still got 2 weeks to improve and sharpen up

every night when i sleep
i just cant wait to wake up.
the excitement towards the comp is so much in me
i've been waiting for this moment since when??
words just cant describe my feelings
HAHA

anyway
im feeling the real effects of dieting now
the last few weeks is really a torture
now i believe in it and i know and feel it now.
i just have to hang on and not give up
ppl at work have been asking me why am i so quiet nowadays
im just so low in energy that i cant be bothered with anything

i just wish the time passes quick for me to go home.

thats all in my mind whenever i go to work.
HA!

keeping things alive..

2008-11-23T18:57:00.010+08:00

amazed by how much difference a week can make
i'm down by a kilo after lowering my carbs.
total carbs daily is 85g only.
im low in energy and i get pissed off easily.
so better dun irritate me!
^_^

the worse days are my working days literally
ZERO CARBS from afternoon till bed time
eating grilled fish, eggs and drinking gallons of water
glad im still able to survive through the whole day.
HAHA

just a glimpse @ 19 days out
A Picture Speaks A Thousand Words

not gonna deny that
im in the best shape of my life now
i just wan this comp so badly
im not gonna let anything get into my way
THE PRESSURE IS ON!!
WOOOOOO!

stocked up junkies!

2008-11-17T15:06:00.006+08:00

anyway,
a nightmare when i saw a letter last tuesday
as i was opening the letter i'm mumbling
"please not this decmeber, please please please!"
almost at the verge of crying out man
luckily not, jumping around when i saw the date!
enlisting 24th APRIL 2009!
HAHAHAHA

the food that i've stocked up so far
durain cake, satayfish, chewing gums & chocos
all thanks to my parents who went to malaysia
so i secretly kept some of the food in lunchboxes
gonna get some potato chips soon!
i will eat the hell out of these
when im done with 13th DEC!
FUCK YEAH!
HAHAHAHA!

right
just under 4 weeks left.
still lean and going on strong.
lowering my carbs slightly starting tml.
so everything will look like this:

Protein: 400-450g
Carbs: 100g
Fats: 50-70g

everything is pretty much there and visible
with the amount of time left and still keeping everything in checked
i believe i can still sharpen up my condition
shall see how my progress goes..
WOOOOO!

5 WEEKS OUT! WOOOO!!!!!!

2008-11-09T19:17:00.009+08:00

5 WEEKS OUT!
trained arms today with Vincent.
noticed more separations on my arms now.
hopefully ppl arent lying to me
and of cos, the mirror wont fucking lie to me!
HAHAHAHA

since both of us have improved on our conditioning in the last 2 weeks
took the chance today to snap all the poses together.

LCP!
this is for you & thanks for supporting me!
i'll do my best to bring the medal home!

not forgetting my little girl thats been going through all these with me.
we'll be able to enjoy food again after everything is over!
its gonna be over real soon baby!
loves loves!

Vincent is gunning towards the 65Kg Category
and I'm competing in the over 70Kg Category
so hes definitely trying to bring his weight down to meet the requirement while i'm just tryin to sharpen up my body, conditioning wise.

at this point of time
no doubt, i admit that i'm indeed sort of struggling
to get rid the last few pounds of fats on my lower abs.
its really a bitch to strip it off.

i shall see how things go this coming week
then plan my nutrition for the last 4 weeks.

yes its really exciting for me now
im so motivated everyday i wake up
i cant wait to eat
i cant wait to cardio
i cant wait to train
WOOOO!!!

2008-11-03T17:08:00.004+08:00

slacking at home after training.

reduced my carbs this wk again
will be sticking to this for at least 2wks for sure!
hopefully, it will take me to e next lvl.

so now
daily nutrient intake is as follow
am still reluctant to go ZERO carbs as of yet.
Protein: 400-450g (1kg fish, 15eggs)
Carbs: 130g (50g oats, 150g rice)
Fats: 50-70g (4 egg yolks, oats, fish)

i love how skintight i am feeling
when i go on low carbs diet
its like my muscles are rocksolid when i flex em.
HEHEHE

just under 6 weeks!
13th dec! 13th dec! 13th dec!

oh ya!
24hr blood pressure monitoring sucks!
made my left arm red and its peeling now.
its been more than 72hrs already since its been removed
but it still have not recovered to its normal state!
fuck it!

2008-10-31T20:15:00.005+08:00

went to submit my registration on wednesday

chatted for around 20mins
with the federation president and head coach

pretty cool and enjoyable
basically just intro myself and told them whats going on in life now.
i feel so honoured just to sit in the president office and chat with them.
nothing beats that man.

the head coach requested to see my abs.
of cos i lifted up and showed him.
was told that i'm doing great around 80% ready already
felt so great with his compliment.
I'll work harder!!!
HAHAHAHA

at least after talking to them.
i know there are ppl who appreciate the things we do
the time, the sacrifices, the pain to build the body

not trying to sound arrogant..
shall not blog bout what other stuff they told me
but to let the future speak for itself.
hopefully, i'll achieve it thats all i can say!

MUAHAHAHA

i got my PES STATUS!!
PES C2L2!
NO IPPT!
WOOO!

7 weeks out

2008-10-27T23:05:00.003+08:00

7 weeks out.
took this pic when i just woke up
HAHAHA

reason was because
i wanna see how i look like when im flat
no food, no pump, minimum water in my body
i know i got a sleepy face!
AHAHA

its legs training today!
it was a real torturous sesion
but its what i needed to get my legs to grow
no pain no gain!

too bad, calves arent as obedient
heres what i did today.

Squats: 5 sets
Leg extensions: 5 sets
Leg press: 5 sets
Hamstring Curls: 5 sets
Stiff Legged Deadlift: 3 sets
Seated Calves: 8 sets (2 differ machines)
Situps: 50reps, 40reps

met up with my girl around 5.30pm
went town in search of her tank top.
couldnt find the colour she wanted
but still bought the black one
still look great!
=D

went to search for my PAM spray while in town too.
but its either out of stock or not available.
i'll change to extra virgin olive oil if theres a need to
sian man.

im so damn tired right now.
legs feel like jelly when i walk around.
finally its closing to the end of the day,
another 1 hour to bed time.
shoulders workout tml!
damn damn damn!
gdnite!

going on strong...

2008-10-20T21:12:00.006+08:00

collected my contacts ytd night.
with my little girl of cos!
she taught me some basics of cleaning/storing
thank you!

well o well
just under 8weeks to go.

found a pic from last yr.
25th Dec 2007
100kg

19th Oct 2008
everything is coming in slowly i hope
88kg

for my diet.
just reduced my carbs today again.
roughly a maximum of 250g of carbs on workout days
and 200g of carbs on non-workout days
shall stay with this for 2weeks
then i'll reduce to 200g/150g respectively again.
separations separations!
abs abs abs!
TROHPY TROHPY TROHPY?
MUAHAHAHAHA

just trained legs today and i feel like total crap.
new contact lens and need to adapt to it.
getting moody mayb due to lack of energy
its gonna b over real soon.. real soon man!

just realised
a year is about to pass man.
still rmbr i took the pic after X'Mas 2007
and its now another 2mths to X'Mas 2008
dunno why isit so fast too..
damn

Countdown begins...

2008-10-18T00:11:00.006+08:00

Nationals Junior 2008
13th December 2008, 11.30am
CairnHill Community Club

forms are already out
so im pretty sure its confirmed.
if they change it again, i dunno wtf to say anymore.
shall submit the registration prolly within next 2wks time.

theres only 4 weight class.
below 60, 65, 70 and above 70.
i'll be in the above 70 for sure.
HAHAHAHA

this time there is also Mr Cairnhill comp together with the juniors.
its open category and its classic bodybuilding
there is a height and weight requirement to meet.
dunno wanna compete that too anot.
shall see how.

8weeks out now man!
made a countdown timer above the tagboard
its getting exciting!!!
WOOOO!!

my new collection of tank tops.
Gold's and PowerHouse Gym.
vincent tag along with his Pitbull's Gym tee shirt too
HAHAHA
collecting my contact lens on sunday!
cant wait!
HAHAHAHA

2008-10-13T21:49:00.003+08:00

trained legs alone today
so fucking damn tiring.
whenever i lie on bed
just feel lik dozing off.
:(

met up with my girl
took some pics at her house
before we left for dinner

WAHAHAHA

oorrrh yee orrrrh yee ohhh!
Tarzan & Jane!

SIAO CHARBO!!
took a few pics with a guy in the gym ytd.
its really fun to pose with someone else.
HAHAHA

hmm
gonna work again tml.
at times i just hate to work now
quarreling with china man who tinks
washing 2 fryer and 1 grill is so great!?
and teaching new guys who can't remember what i taught.
pisses me off again n again.
fuck it!

Practise makes PERFECT

2008-10-10T23:50:00.004+08:00

im back!
went for review ytd at CMPB.
i believe i've been downgraded for my knee problems.
tts what the medical officer told me.
PES Status is still pending.
gotta go back on the 30th for a blood pressure check.
24hrs blood pressure monitoring on me.
how cool rite..
HAHAHAHA

guess im gonna change it to 29th Oct
since its a 2 consecutive days visit.
hopefully my PES status will be out tt time.
LOL

anyway
i tried to attempt a pose which i've been long waiting to.
MUAHAHAHAHA!

finally i learnt hw to sort of do it.
it was after looking at some full view pics of other bodybuilders on how they position themselves for this pose.

first try before workout ytd

never give up.
tried again today after workout!
WOOO!
gonna master this damn pose.
i cant wait for another productive bulking season.
just wan to improve and thicken the damn back
so it will look great in this pose.
HAHAHA!

2008-10-08T21:24:00.006+08:00

met up with my girl in e noon

went to my grandma house at serangoon

to visit my grandma and play with my cousin!
WAHAHAHA

damn

10mth old and he is so cute.
and chubby!
but too bad, no pics man.
HAHA

went down to Velocity after.
heard its sort of like queensway

indeed it is, with lotsa sports stuff
but the prices arent as low as queensway.
the difference is its not so boring like queensway.

The LONSDALE clothing is sweet!
quite cheap man
2 for $40

3 for $50
at first wanted to get one for her and myself
and we manage to find one tt is like a couple shirt
but in e end

decided to save the money instead.
HAHAHA

anyway
gotta report 8.30am at CMPB tml!
shall update what PES i got if i get it.
its getting exciting again!
HAHAHAHA!

thats all folks!
byeEeEE!!

Transformers 2008 - LeXaTron

2008-10-01T12:08:00.006+08:00

right a week passes damn fast.
went shopping with my girl on monday and ytd.
insearch of my training shorts.
but fuck, came home empty handed on both occasion
ZZZZZ

Spinelli is now our love!
relaxed at the raffles city outlet on monday evening.
HAHAHA

this time round
i tried the Banana Spin
while she insist on Cookies Spin again.

-Our Spins!-

the Banana Spin okok only
taste like Banana protein shake to me.
DAMN!
HAHA!

100kg VS 88kg
HAHAHA

when i first saw the pic i took ytd.
i went "AH! FINALLY it is better now!"
almost a year since i took a back relax shot
i know im crazy and in love with myself
HAHAHAHA

i'm your Transformer!
LEXATRON!

2008-09-24T12:58:00.009+08:00

its been long since i enjoyed some drinks.
went to Spinelli with my girl for it
COOKIES SPIN!

its so fucking nice and thick man.
blend of cookies,mocha and ice if im not wrong.
gonna try its Banana Spin next time.
WOOO!

life is still going on well.
made my contact lens on Monday night too.
can't wait for it to be ready man!

pics from Sunday's Training.
2 army boy, 1 civilian
WE ARE BACK!
MUAHAHAHA!

decided to do comparisons with each other
either 1 calls the pose, and we'll do the pose together.
fun fun!

crappy pics but cant help it.
my phone isnt cybershot anymore.
HAHA!

OBSESSED is just a word
the lazy use to descibe the DEDICATED!
VERY TRUE!

HAHAHAHA!

thats all for today!
^_^

2008-09-20T14:17:00.003+08:00

ROAR!!! http://www.fitgr.com/index.php?option=com_content&view=article&id=22&Itemid=17

Vote pic 7 for those who have not done it!!
Those who have voted
Thank You for the support!

According to the chief
Voting ends in another 5days time!

P/S: Pic 5 and 22 is also me!

2008-09-17T21:27:00.004+08:00

went to CMPB for medical this morning

woke up extremely early at 6.45am
only 6hrs of sleep.
drank a huge cup of coffee with my breakfast to keep me "alive"
packed 2 meals and 2 protein shakes there.
was very excited for the medical since the start of the week.
guess a perfect planning from me kept me on track for my meals.
MUAHAHAHA

anyway,

medical starts at 11am, finished at 2.15pm.
faster than wat i expected.

as for the results of the medical

i was put on PENDING review and investigation
gotta go back on the 9th Oct 8.30am.
knee x-rays awaiting review.
blood pressure to be checked again
^_^

since i'm bored,

heres what i did and my meal plan for today

6.45am : 50g oats + protein shake + coffee

9am : 100g brown rice + 250g fish

12pm : protein shake + 75g oatmeal

2.15pm : 100g brown rice + 250g fish

4pm : 30mins wonderful nap for me

4.45pm : 100g brown rice + 250g fish

6pm: 30mins cardio + abs workout

7pm : 100g brown rice + 250g fish

9.15pm : 100g fish + 5 egg whites
11.30pm : protein shake + 300ml milk

12.30am : SLEEP!!

tiring and long day but the training tml keeps me pumped!
cant wait to hit the gym tml.
back training!
can't wait to wear my sexy T-Back tank top.
HAHAHAHAHA

2008-09-13T14:36:00.003+08:00

Question: BIGGER AND BETTER, AT WHAT COST?
Answer: EVERYTHING, ANYTHING!

damn the back!
so hard to improve, but at least its improving slowly.
i wan it to be my strongest part in years to come.
if not, one of the strongest!
HAHAHAHAHA!

wanna fill water into the back of our neck??

anyway
trained with vincent yesterday; chest day
and finally he can take a break which is like 10days?

looks like he is still surviving well and not losing much weight
guess the OREO COOKIES helped him
HAHAHA

gonna work later
$_$
!!!!!!

2008-09-10T12:40:00.006+08:00

Cardio-ed at CCK this morning
was accompanied by my girl
30mins full-incline

hopefully the maintenance works

at Zhenghua CC will be completed soon.
so i wont have to rush off to cardio whenever i wake up.
its like only opposite my house? HA!
though the gym sucks, but dont care la.
i'm just there to use the treadmill
HAHAHAHA

started to reduce my calories yesterday.
around 300calories off my daily count
shall see hw things goes from now..

Sunday
7th September
went through some posing after training arms
minghan was there to sort of judge for me
gave me some comments regarding my physique
as to whr to improve on etc etc.

as usual.
kanina my fucking waist needs to be smaller.
nvm, now its 32" who knows it will be when i diet further?
guess i will reach around 31"
another alternative is
i'll try my best to bring out the wings.
with a bigger and wider pair of it
it will giv an illusion of a smaller waist.
HAHAHA

on the bright side
im still holding on well at this level.
abs are still visible, but not sharp yet.
but it will come as i diet down in the few wks to come!

still not sure how many weeks towards the comp
at times i just been tinking

"what if they fuck us up again and cancel it?"
so many thoughts going through my mind.
just dun wanna be disappointed again
after all the shit i've gone through.
but nevertheless, i'll still be working harder than ever!!
ROARRRR!

2008-09-07T12:51:00.005+08:00

watch this!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CuN2lglHBKA
fucking motivated me!!
cant wait to hit the gym later!
WOOO!

when can i be like one of them???
drugs anot doesnt matter, its still 100% hardwork.
i'll risk it all just to be one of them.
i'll giv up 1 testicle just to be like them.
ARGG!!!
FUCK IT!

anyway
been training with haizel since thursday.
he said he'll be back training.
but who knows?
people come n go in this game.
just cant be bothered at times.
we shall see...

went for a "meeting" with fellow athletes ytd.
to welcome a new president for the federation
and get briefed about the changes and upcoming events.
was told the comp is sometime in December.
hopefully it wont be changed any more.
=)

suggestions were also given by hypocrites
regarding solving the "dark" side of the sport
no doubt.
i'm worried myself & affected by it.
but i'll say fuck it and still compete!

HAHAHA

2008-08-30T23:42:00.004+08:00

nearly got into a fight with 2 sissy guys at suntec.
was about to throw myself onto one guy

my blood was boiling
FUCK DAMNIT

shall not elaborate much.
all i can say is i was pushed

therefore i bump and swung back at.
consoled by my girl and gave them a UNIVERSAL finger and left.
that left the 2 guys barking like some chiwawas
gay piece of voice.
COMEX gives ppl trouble.
_!_

walked around in search of my trackpants
finally found it at Marina.
my favourite adidas.!

afterall, gotta agree with my girl
i have to control myself at times.
CONTROL CONTROL CONTROL!
its not worth it to get into trouble and mess with the law
especially dirtying my hands on those arseholes.
maybe i shall always end everything with a UNIVERSAL FINGER.

AHAHAHAHHA

on our way home.
=D

just kinda relief i really didnt got into a fight.
its so damn fucking close.
owe it to my lovely sunshine!

2008-08-29T09:13:00.004+08:00

the comp date is changed again.
fuck it man.
the feeling sucks big time.

was told that it will be changed to December.
its a confirmed news from my source

but the date is still nt released.
wat a sucky federation we got in sg.
good thing is i'll have more time to prepare

bad thing is i may get called up for enlistment.
FUCKING HELL.

i'll update once the date of the comp is out again
shall just continue doing my cardio
no changes to my diet yet.
no calories reduction or wat-so-ever
wait till i get the confirmed date then i'll go all out.
=)

10 weeks out.

2008-08-27T10:05:00.002+08:00

alright.

finally its here.

National Jr. 2008
Date: 2nd November 2008
Venue: 9am-2pm Cairnhill CC

I'm officially 10 weeks out in these pics.
gonna hit the damn cardio again.
93KG

gonna go queensway with my girl first.
then hit the cardio this evening
HAHAHAHA!

I'm fucking driven to do my best this time round.
WOOOOO!

2008-08-23T10:50:00.011+08:00

20th August 2008

celebrated her birthday.
bought cheesecake,brownie & shortcake over to her place.
a soft birthday song to her ears
prepared and off to town.

wasn't happy at all initially.
cos of a bastard that is troubling me and my girl.
not for once, but for weeks already
warned him and told him to FUCK OFF from my girl

finally got rid of him.
at times i feel that i just need to be nasty to dicks
who thinks im an idiot just cos i dont say/do anything

HA!

anyway
heres the pics for that day.

-On The Way-

-Seoul Garden Buffet-

didnt take much pics when eating.
only for the deserts part!
HAHAHA

the shitload of ice-cream i dug for her!
MUAHAHAHA
sorry bout my kuku face.
HAHAHAHA

went to P.S then down to Esplanade after.
slacked and took some pics.

-home sweet home-

hello "back"
HOW ARE YOU?

2008-08-18T21:22:00.005+08:00

watched MONEY NO ENOUGH 2 yesterday
with my little girl and her mum.
HAHAHA.

kinda paiseh
but nvm, i'm ok with it!
everything went well.
=)

LEGS DAY TODAY!
set a new personal record for myself.
took a deeeep breath & unracked the bar
down i go against the gravity
screaming at the top of my voice.
rep after rep, all eyes are on me
I DID IT FINALLY!

75KG a side. 6 reps in total
Total of 170KG including the bar.
WOOOOOOOOOOO!

ANIMAL GONNA BE!
hopefully next week i will be able to manage it better!
although 170KG isnt any big deal

but to me its a new accomplishment to me!

HAHAHAHA

my little girl with me after gym!

My 32 inches waist.
3 more inches to vincent's
if only i can.
HAHAHAHAHA

Current Stats
Weight: 92.5kg
Chest: 46"
Arms: 16.75"
Waist: 32"
Hips: 35"
Thighs: 25"
Calves: 15.5"

I EAT TO LIVE!

2008-08-16T12:44:00.003+08:00

BORING SATURDAY IS KILLING ME!
gonna work later
$_$

anyway since im bored
heres a meal of mine.
1 whole egg, 250g fish, 100g brown rice(uncooked)
added some extra bean sprouts with pepper!
4 meals of it daily
Total of 6-7 meals a day.
WOOO!

I EAT TO LIVE!

2008-08-11T20:49:00.003+08:00

time is passing real fast.

i dunno what to say

have not enlisted

but im already cursing and swearing like fuck
HAHAHAHA

anyway
gotta thank my aunt for getting me a new phone
Sony Ericsson - W890i
black colour and im loving it
but its walkman & kinda slim
guess i gotta slowly get use to it.
picture quality is still pretty good.
3.2MP
=D

since its legs training today
thought it will be a great idea
to refill my body with PEPPER LUNCH!
HAHAHA

its been so long i ate that.
im craving for so long liao
finally i manage to eat it!
WOOOOOOOOO!

-On our way to LOT1-
suggest to take some new pics with the new phone
but with flowers/plants in the background

you know, im a romantic person!
sorry to make you guys puke
but you guys gotta believe it!
HAHAHAHAHA

DINNER TIME!
-her hamburger steak rice--my teriyaki double salmon-

shes enjoying it!

as usual
brought my home pack diet food there too.
1 whole egg, 1.5 piece dory, 1 cup of rice

with my home pack meal
it will then be enough for my stomach.
HAHAHAHA
time to rest
shoulders training tml!
MUAHAHAHAHA!

2008-08-04T20:25:00.008+08:00

just got back form LOT1.
accompanied my little baby for dinner.
she got me an apple pie too!
NICE!
HAHA!

anyway
after considering and hesitating for 2 weeks
finally went to change my hairstyle

NO MORE TAIL

NO MORE FRINGE
SHORT AND NOTHING FANCYFUL

exposed scarr at the back of my head
from an operation i did in 1999.
but its not gonna bother me
i just hav to live with it
=D

check me out here

http://www.getgasp.com/index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=76&Itemid=1
sort of advertising for them.
but i love their products!
so cooool!

heres my so so weak back
that im gonna so so improve it; BIG TIME!
last pic of me with tail and fringe
=(
kinda miss my old hairstyle.
but i got no regrets with the current one.
its so short that i dun need to care bout it!
WOOOOOOOOOOOO!

Suki Time!

2008-07-28T20:05:00.005+08:00

went out with my girl on saturday
its been so long since we headed to town.
ate SUKI SUSHI buffet at Cine.
im still craving for it now.
i love sushi man.
so niceeeeeeeee!

when we just started eating.

me before GAMMA radiation..me after GAMMA radiation!
im not green, u noe why?
cos i didnt eat wasabi!
HAHAHAHHAA!
self potrait of her.
oops! she gonna kill me!
HAHAHAHA!
ate quite alot.
im like the only 1 that is eating
cos my stomach is sooooo big.
HAHAHAHHAA

took quite alot of pics in there.
^_^

sushi will make my arms grow bigger!
HOPEFULLY!
HAHA!

walked around after eating to digest.
looked for clothes.
went to Adidas to try on a red tank top.
cost $35, didnt get it though.
she bought a couple of tops from cotton-on
and off we went to search for LCP workplace
Tag Heuer, Wisma
chatted awhile and off to far-east.
went to buy her shorts there.
home sweet home after.
=D

hope to watch The Dark Knight with her this week!
shall see how..
WOOO!

Stronger...

2008-07-23T11:38:00.005+08:00

today onwards.

i'm officially training alone.
Vincent is entering NS.
Minghan is serving NS.

i'll only have them joining me most prob on Sundays
but i'll still have to keep to wat im doing.
pushing myself and improving.

-The Last 3 Standing-
balls to walls training got us where we are today.
hopefully after our NS
we'll still be training harder than ever.
that is what we are; Training Buddies

we've seen people who joined and left us.
we can't hold them back.
afterall, its their choice.

"I have found the Iron to be my greatest friend. It never freaks out on me, never runs. Friends may come and go. But 200lbs is always 200lbs."

4th week of bulking
weight is at 91.5kg-92kg
still going on well..

I MUST BE WIDER TO PROTECT THE LOVE I GOT NOW!
-I Need You, My Sunshine-

2008-07-18T08:46:00.006+08:00

went suntann-ed on wednesday
a lifeguard approached me
asked me how long have i been lifting.
a stranger approached me in the toilet
asked me if im a bodybuilder and preparing for a comp.
all these simple little things from people
just gives me the momentum to carry on what i am doing
just dunno how to describe the feeling in me.
as i always thought nobody will know im a bodybuilder.

cos im still small.
HAHAHA

bulking has been going on fine.

currently at 91kg

not much weight gain yet.

guess thats how a CLEAN bulk should be.
shall see how the following weeks go.

bodyfat been maintaining pretty well too.

anyway
2 years ago.

i bought myself a M size "REGULAR" tank top
told myself i will wear it when i grow bigger.
now i'm able to those REGULAR ones.
BUT THAT ISNT ENOUGH!

Now...
i got myself another piece of tank top
a "T-BACK" tank top!
i gonna wear this for all my back trainings.
im gonna use it to
motivate me, push me harder, and improve my back!
WOOO!

HAHAHAHA
guess im wierd.

but thats how i motivate myself.

MY BODY IS MY BIGGEST & TOUGHEST COMPETITOR!

Shrugging 100kg.

tink im gonna get a BLACK coloured one too.
maybe a RED one also.
HAHAHA!

its damn comfortable
its almost like not wearing anything to workout!
able to see my back muscle working when im training
just gives me the "DRIVE" to go all out to...
IMPROVE MY FUCKING BACK!

-Posedown~!

2008-07-14T20:24:00.012+08:00

trained legs today

re-invented a new calves training routine
total reps of 160-200 for calves
I'll do 2 exercises
4 sets each

aiming for 20-25 reps per set.

hopefully the calves really grow this time.

HAHAHAHA

anyway
posed with Vincent yesterday after workout

started off with some individuals of mine.

HAHAHA

FUCK!
unleashing into a beast after this pic!
HAHAHAHAHHAA

my milion dollar smile
HAHAHA

the long awaited back lats spreadheres comes my famous most muscular!
MUAHAHAHAHA!

-Posing with Vincent-

i wish i got his waist.
HAHAHHAA
here comes my million dollar smile again!
HAHAHAHA!
hmmm
i still need to improve alot on my middleback
i'll do it for sure!
BOOOOM!
BANG!

heres a pic of me at 105kg and now!
no more puffer fish!
MUAHAHHAAHA!

2008-07-12T09:29:00.003+08:00

found my poly class pic.

2006 if im nt wrong.
the class which i had been with for 2yrs

the class which i enjoyed most with..

but in e end....

tinking back.
somehow i miss the life in poly.
but definitely nt the studies.

ya, i know im wierd.

HAHAHAHA
ya, i know i grew alot since 2006.

MUAHAHAHA!

MASS-O-MOTIC TIME!

2008-07-05T12:30:00.008+08:00

fuck this weather

wanted to suntann but it ended....

RAINING!

anyway

its the start of the 8 weeks clean bulk

i hope to control my bodyfat level this round.
which i believe i can.
HAHA

unlike in the past
i will not be doing an all out bulk

stuffing all the food in to hit a target weight

eating the dirty calories which makes me fat instead.

this time round i will take it slow and steadily
getting in calories from good source of food.

cardio will be kept to a minimum of once per week

or maybe no cardio at all for that week.

will depend on how i feel and look.

hopefully by doing this

i'll be able to maintain bodyfat pretty well.

took some pics again.

so that in a few weeks time

i can judge myself if

im still holding my bodyfat pretty well.
HOHOHO!

who wanna hold onto my arms & fly with me?
HAHAHA

I LOVE MY LEGS!
MY STRONGEST BODYPART! BIGGER ARMS PLS!
NEED A TRICEP?
after getting opinion from frens/competitors.
i know what im gonna improve on now.
OVERALL THICKNESS AND FULLNESS BABY!
WATCH OUT!!
WOOO!!!

I'LL BE BACK! BETTER THAN EVER!

2008-06-30T15:02:00.012+08:00

bear with me guys.

im still sad.

need to pour all my disappointment in my blog.

HAHAHA

took some pics on saturday & today morning.

im really impressed,sad & disappointed by the pics.
impressed that i've made noticeable improvements

sad that i may not be able to compete.
disappointed that the hardwork i put in goes to waste.

Pics taken with only camera flash
a big big challenge to myself

due to my height
i still need to be BIGGER seriously

LCP, dun be disappointed.

treat the pics as if im on stage then.
HAHAHA!

weight is still 90kg.
estimated bodyfat is around 11-13% range.
Saturday Pics

Today Morning

i've emailed the federation.

got a reply and guess what?

the manager said it will be re-scheduled to NOVEMBER.

the date/info will only be released around Sept/Oct.

im wondering if its for real???

it will be great

if it is really in november.
I WILL COMPETE!!
but i cant predict the next few months.
who knows suaysuay i get called up for enlistment
gotta take things step by step man

MY PLAN

so here goes my plan starting next wk.
it will be a bulking phase for 8-12weeks.
it will be a CLEAN BULK

purpose is to control my bodyfat

while making improvements to my body

the CLEAN BULK will end around September.

i should have some info bout the comp around that time.
taking things step by step is what i can do now.
not gonna plan 1 whole fucking big chunk of plans
and get fucking disappointed at the end again.
HAHAHA

depressed, sad, disappointed.

2008-06-28T11:56:00.004+08:00

FUCK IT IS ALL I CAN SAY

pls let me know if the comp is still on?

sigh...

so much time.

so much hardwork.

so much so much of dedication.

this is all the fuck i ended up with.

WTF

FUCK THIS ORGANISATION.

some say its stil on.

some say its in november

some say its no longer on.

but from the words of the ppl in the organisation.

its a "NO MORE"

SO WTF?

WHICH ONE EXACTLY?!?!?

when i can compete.

i didnt

when i wan to compete.

there isnt

FUCK IT!

NO ONE CAN FUCKING UNDERSTAND HOW DISAPPOOINTED IM FEELING NOW.

ITS NOT BOUT WINNING OR WHAT.

ITS BOUT THE SACRIFICES, THE HARDWORK I PUT IN AND HOPING TO COMPETE FOR 1 LAST TIME AS A JUNIOR.

FUCK IT FUCK IT FUCK IT!

JUST FEEL LIK TOTAL CRAP NOW.

ARGGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-06-24T08:57:00.004+08:00

LCP 21st bday the past saturday.

suki sushi at cine
shiok!

only pic taken on that day.
HAHAHAHAHHAA!
legs training on monday.
went with my girl
hit a new PR.
160kg squat
WOOO!

pretty amazing
cant believe it
setting a personal record while dieting.
HAHA!

i'm here to protect you!

MUAHAHAH!

2008-06-20T14:21:00.004+08:00

few days back

1 of the company which i sent my resume to

called me up, but too bad.

enlisting for NS.

cant fucking employ me.

WTF

the company is specialized in strength/fitness solutions.

the lady called me

asked me if i know any designing skills using software.
so that i can help in designing their website/products.

of cos i said dunno

sad man bcos she said if i can do all those

i can work part time as their website designer.

instead of a full-time sales executive
FUCK IT!

lost 2 full time jobs due to NS

what can i say but SUCK!

anyway

today was chest day.

requested vincent to take couple of pics for me.

just wanna see how much i've progressed for this dieting.
and it turned out great.
better definition on the back
still maintaining between 89-90kg

WOO!

NOT GOOD ENOUGH!
IM NOT SATISFIED!
I WAN MORE!!

HA!

ROARRR!!
LCP BIRTHDAY TML!
FINALLY HE IS A MAN!
HAHAHAHA!

2008-06-18T12:47:00.005+08:00

went out on monday with my girl

she bought her yoga matt.

i got my berms, 2 v-neck top, sling bag

spent around 90bucks.
quite worth it.
^_^

LET ME FLY PLS!
GIVE ME MORE DEFINITION PLS!

anyway
package came ytd
shared by friends and me.
WOOOO!

working later.
shiioook
$_$

2008-06-12T09:18:00.002+08:00

hmm.

things that im gonna get soon

a top, berms, bag

mayb a pair of CROCS?

or some birkenstock look alike?

HAHAHA

i'll keep the budget of total less than 150bucks.

i hope!

=D

CROCS or not?

Havainas again?
SIAN
HELP!

HAHAHAHA!

2008-06-08T11:52:00.004+08:00

at times

i just feel that the father-son bond is so fucked.

how i wish i got a dad

that is ever supportive.

that helps you when you're down

i didnt even get

this kind of treatment from my dad AT ALL.

all he does is criticise,demoralise,look down on me.
spoiling my fucking mood right in morning.

SO WHAT IF FATHER DAY IS COMING?!

YOU EXPECT A TREAT FROM ME?

YOU CALLED ME A 'DISGRACE' COS I DIDNT?
WAT KIND OF DOG-CRAP IS THIS?!?!

YOU DIDNT EVEN GIVE ME ANYTHING!

NOT EVEN ON MY BIRTHDAY!
YOU DIDNT SUPPORT ME IN WHATEVER I DO!
YOU DIDNT EVEN GAVE ME ANY ALLOWANCE!

YOU DIDNT SPARE ME $$ WHEN I NEEDED IT!

ALL YOU FUCKING DO IS CRITICISE ME!??!
ALL YOU DO IS ASK ME TO WORK WORK WORK SINCE WHEN??

AT THE AGE OF 12???
FUCK YOU!

YOU LOVE TO COMPARE ME TO YOUR FRIEND'S SON.

HA!

FINALLY TODAY

I TOOK UP THE COURAGE
COMPARING YOU TO MY FRIEND'S FATHER.
I DUN GIVE A FUCK NOW.
KICK ME OUT OF THE HOUSE IF U FEEL LIKE.

i swear.

if i got a child in the future.

i'll not make him feel so drifted away from me.
like how i feel now.

at times

i even feel that im closer to my friends than my dad.
im not trying to be sarcastic

but thats how i feel.

fuck it is all i can.

MY MUM IS ALL I EVER REMEMBER THAT SUPPORTED ME!

2008-06-08T00:47:00.010+08:00

my life isnt like you.

working sleeping drinking gaming

i go off early so?
im not the only one tt left also
at least i stayed till the speech is over
the "MAINCAST" knew im going off early too

so whats the shit from your mouth about?
FAGGOT...

WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU?

NOBODY!

YOU'RE JUST A FAT SWOLE!

WITH A POT LIKE BELLY HANGING ON YOU!

FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT!
YOU'RE FUCKING NOBODY TO INSULT ME.

I LIVE BY MY OWN PRINCIPLES.
THIS IS MY LIFE!

MY PASSION!

MY DREAM!

$_$

2008-06-06T14:11:00.002+08:00

working every single night from tuesday to saturday.
5days straight

cool!

its tiring.

but what to do.

$$ is important.

cost of food all so sky high now.

WTF seriously.

have not booked my NS medical yet.,

mayb nxt wk or wat ba.

wait till im free.

HAHA!

fell in love with salmon

been eating 200g everyday
on top of my daily meals
YUMMY!
MUAHAHAHHAA!

Comparisons + Progress

2008-05-31T23:07:00.011+08:00

theres still alot that i wanna improve on.
almost the entire body.
but theres nth much i can do now
keeping muscle loss to a minimum
while burning the fats off is my priority now.

still burning the fats away.

slowly n slowly.

weight is between 89kg - 90kg now.

LETS CHECK OUT THE PROGRESSS!!!
3 months ago.
Fat + Watery + Bloated
105kg

2 months ago
97.5kg
Slimmer

1 month ago
94kg
Leaner

NOW!!!
89-90kg
Leaner + Tighter waist.
Front Double.

Front Lat
quite blurry took another 1.
2nd shot
HAHA!
Side Chest
dun bother bout my face
bother bout my veins.

FINALLY
the SHOT i've been waiting for.
MY BACK!
deemed as my weakest bodypart.

Back Double!!
thought it was lighting tt fooled me.
so i took another to justify
that it is more defined.
finally the 3rd shot...
i'm convinced it is the best i've ever looked. im wondering
if i were to loose anotherr 3-5kg
how will i look like
HAHAHA!

how i wish i can improve further.
go for a few more bulking phase.
but NS is keeping everything on hold
for at least 2-3yrs.
SAD BUT CRUEL FACT

2008-05-31T16:39:00.002+08:00

awaiting for hours of sleep to pass.

waking up just to see the dark sky.
FUCK IT IS ALL I CAN SAY.

nothing sucks more than

being all excited

and get fucking disappointed in the end.

I WANNA SUNTANN!!

FUCK IT!

PEPPER LUNCH!

2008-05-27T22:21:00.009+08:00

so sian man.

got my NS medical check up letter last friday.

gotta book a day for the check up soon.

how i wish i can say

"FUCK IT LA"

anyway

today was great.

although i got a sprained neck which made me SIAN
but i got to spend with my girl for the entire evening.
met up with her after her work

went to LOT1.

walked around.

searched for my sexy underwear.

HAHAHAHA!

bought 2 boxes of renoma's

went to foodcourt for my meal.

PEPPER^LUNCH!

WOO!

Her Order:
hamburger steak with egg set
My Order:

double teriyaki salmon set
SHIIOOK!
brought my dory fish + 1 egg as usual.

added an additional bowl of rice too.

cos i know for sure.

the meal i ordered wont be enough to fill my stomach.

LOL!

just sooooooo happy

its my 2nd time eating PEPPER^LUNCH
the first time was with my girl too!
im fucking hooked to it!

nxt time gonna eat again for sure.

SALMON SALMON SALMON!

HAHAHA!

I LOVE MY TINY LITTLE GF!

RED BULL GIVES YOU?

2008-05-25T09:54:00.003+08:00

cardio at CCK ytd

went home eat and prepare.
met my girl at 2pm
went to bugis

walked around looking around.

bought 2 shirts and 1 tanktop.

total $30

but i believe if i go thailand.

confirm alot cheaper

HAHAHA

went to suntec after.

had subway + sushi as my meal.

damn the sushi.

cheap as fuck.

all 50% prices.

SHIOK.

walked around carrefour

trying on shirts etc etc.

walking round n round.

finally its meal time.

SUSHI AGAIN!

bought 2 boxes of salmon + unagi.

$6 with a total of 6 salmon 6 unagi.

yumyum.

headed back to BPP.

was shocked to see so many ppl queue up till outside of plaza.

went in to check it out.

its the GSS.

midnight sale summore.

damn crowded.

had another meal of subway

acc her home and thats how a saturday was spent.

Question:

RED BULL GIVES YOU?

Answer:

IT GIVES YOU WINGS!

RED BULL GIVE ME ENERGY!
BANG!
HAHAHAHAHAA!

i wan to get tanned now!!
tink i need to be bigger also.
wait for the next bulking phrase.
sian.

called the federation few days back.
regarding the date of comp
the incharge told me
"I DUNNO"
"CHECK BACK AGAIN IN LATE JUNE"
WTF!?!?!?!

WORSE ORGANISING SKILLS EVER SEEN.
SHITHEADS.

2008-05-21T23:29:00.007+08:00

finally bought a new trackpants

WOOO!

cardio-ed at zhenghua CC in the morning
30mins incline.
SHIIOK!

met up with baby at BP Interchange.
down to suntec.
passed by marina
went into TOPMAN.
HAHAHAHA!

she chose a V-NECK tee for me.

went into the fitting room.

WOOO!

Posing in the fitting room!
nearly poo in my berms.

HAHAHAHA!
Tried the V-NECK!

Size XXL!

hahaha.

actually its quite fitting.

felt its kinda comfortable too.

2 for $29 if im not wrong.
but cash tight la nowadays.

so i didnt buy it.

but priority first.

search for my track pants first.
round n round through suntec

cant find my trackpants.

ate my meal at foodcourt.

MRT to JP

finally found my trackpants

black n white adidas.

WOOOO!

2008-05-19T14:03:00.003+08:00

back from legs training!

so fucking crowded today.

expected, since its VESAK day.

HAHAHA

everything have been going well

since last wk legs training have went back to normal.

full intensity.

LOVING IT!

pretty sad that

those damn calves just wont grow.

fuck it.

working later also.

tired tired tired.

gonna take a nap soon.

tink i shd go buy some TOTO or 4D.

cos i seldom work after legs training.

its only my 3rd time i tink.

HAHAHAHA!

2008-05-18T20:54:00.002+08:00

kinda enjoy working nwadays

dunno why.

mayb bcos of the thought of $$

though the pay isnt high

but aiya.

still can survive.
AHAHA!

as for my passion.

its still bout maintaining now.

but to my surprise

weight is now 90kg.

im so impatient for the date to be released.

not even sure if the federation

will be holding the comp for Juniors.

so many probs within the federation right now.

hopefully its still on...

LEGS TRAINING TML!

CANT WAIT!!!
:D

FREAKAZOID

2008-05-09T21:04:00.003+08:00

weight still at 92-93kg
chest/abs workout today
followed by some posing again.
HAHAHA!

I WANNA BE A
FREAKAZOID

ROAR!!!

A FREAKAZOID!
learnt the above new most muscular poses
and it turned out pretty well to me.
WOOO!

comp date is still not out yet.
dunno when it will also.
just wait n see.
all i hope is.. it is still on

waiting impatiently

2008-05-08T14:45:00.003+08:00

just dont like this feeling.

waiting and waiting

for the call from GNC.

the week is closing to an end.

but no calls yet.

sad man.

if i dont get this job
its all bcos of the fucking NS
wonder why the fuck is there a need for NS!?!?

fucked up.

i dread enlistment to come.

i'm not a pussy neither am i a wimp.

i just hate it when i see my hardwork go to waste

fucking hell

ARGGGGGG!

CALL ME PLS CALL ME PLS!!!

I WANNA WORK!!!

@!#!$!@$!#@!$!#!$!@@!

Tired.

2008-05-05T22:46:00.005+08:00

been a long day today

woke up early to prepare in time for interview.

left home around 11.15am.

thanks to my girl!

she accompanied me

if not my journey there will be boring as hell.

reached there early

ate my meal while she at her lunch.

kinda feels wierd going so far away from home

everything at there seems different

the ppl are different too.

can sense its not bukit panjang

sorry i know its CRAP.
HAHAHA!

anyway

the interview went well.
the things she said when she saw me was

"wow, you look familiar"

"you're into bodybuilding right?

"are you working now?"

"will be called up for NS anytime soon?"
HAHAHA!

briefed me bout the salary

working times etc etc.

felt the pay and roster schedule is pretty good.
by these week i will know if i get selected anot.

will keep my hp by my side even in the gym!

hopefully i get it!
HAHA!

back to the gym.

legs training was still pretty intense.

my thigh still hurt

its my left thigh instead of the right this time round.

FUCKING HELL!

nevertheless i still finish my entire workout.

same exercises, same sets, same intensity!
much much better than last wk.

WOOO!

2008-05-03T22:00:00.003+08:00

interview is on monday 2pm

SOOOOO SCARY!!!
HAHAHAHA!

shall just try my best to get this job.
cos i really wish to try working full time man.
and its a place which i tink i will love.
HAHAHAH!

tink i shall try participating
bodybuilding.com's transformation of the week again.
maybe i'll try sending in next wk.
HAHA!

Before
10th March 2008
Around 102kg

After
3rd May 2008
92.5kg

maintanance phrase this coming wk.
for 6wks i tink.
hopefully i'll still be able to maintain where i am now.

not much changes.
just that i'll try to enjoy abit more of my life
but definitely not eating KFC!
HAHAHAHA!