alright,

back from a long break and its time to report back next monday. So far i've enjoyed my block leave and i hate going back to camp.
training and eating normally again then suddenly it may be disrupted again...

damn shit feeling.
no wonder coach once said

"you'll be losing muscle and gaining fats in the army"

how true... fuck it...

anyway,
i'm being posted to Ayer Rajah Camp as a technician which is to repair tanks... The only thing that i like is its stay out which means i can go home everyday and hopefully hit the gym too. the only thing which i hope wont happen frequently is late release from camp!

HAHAHA

oh ya!
another problem i got is my meals... !

i know im fucking picky and troublesome but i just hate it when my diet gets mess around like fuck.. Heard from my fren that there will be tea-breaks in the morning and another in the late afternoon, if that is for real i'll get to bodybuild like i use to already..

3 meals will be easily solved in there!

shall not have so high hopes yet, go in see see first...
guess i shall not complain much since i get to sleep on my own comfy bed every night!!
WOOOO!!

P.O.C LOH!

finally BMT had come to an end...

as much as i hate NS, i cant deny that i've made several good friends in there and enjoyed the stay with them through the 7weeks.

field camp was seriously the shit!
4days in the forest, eating whatever i can, 2 packs of combat ration at one go. some wont even eat and pass it to me, yup, it taste bad but it wont hurt me either. i am what i am now with a reason and i dont fucking care how bad it taste, i'll choke it down just for the sake of getting the calories in to at least try my best to maintain whatever i have. thats who i am and what i live for....

the best part of BMT is when we trashed other companies during games day, we were the champions for tug of war and the champions for mascot competition. shame on those guys who looked down on us as PES C!
especially those mohawk guys, irritating faggs.
HAHAHA

so here i am, with 2 weeks of leave before i get posted to my new unit. finally i can get a huge BREAK from those junk food in tekong. but i still gotta thank my friends/buddies who 'donated' their bits and pieces of meat to me every meal.

as for now, i'll be going back to my usual diet and training while waiting for my posting, thats the best i can do for now...
sigh....

3wks had past

4wks more to go.

i hate army, but there isnt anything i can do about it.
finally i got a confirmed status yesterday after they did an x-ray on my spine. its concluded that my spine is out of alignment from my pelvic bone.

thats what the medical officer told me.
how great!!
im officially excused from RMJ, HEAVYLOAD, UNIFORM and can only do light duties!

HAHAHAHAHAH!
hell yeah!!

next week is my field camp, 4 days 3 nights in the fucking forest... i dont know how am i gonna survive through that with all the shit food provided, but at least im aware that i will only be there to observe but not participate in the activities due to my back injury. the only thing that sucks is that i'll be feeding mosquitos there since i will only be in my t-shirt/shorts instead of uniform... hopefully no camo cream for me also
damn...


at times i'm so stressed up in the army.

i dunno why, seriously its driving me crazy at times, but i kept telling myself to go through it once and for all.
i nearly wanted to go 'Out Of Training' as i couldnt stand the shit thats going on anymore, i see 5yrs of my hardwork being wasted off in just a few weeks, how depressing it can get, nobody will understand how im feeling.
as of last week, i lost 3kg
fucking hell.
to some it isnt alot, but 3kg lost is fucking obvious on me.
fuck

i get homesick
i miss my mum
i miss my little girl
and i miss my friends along with the weights
just 4 more fucking weeks is all i had to go through and hopefully things will be better after i get posted out.

sigh....
when can i train and eat normally again....
im sick of those rubbish like food in the army, only on a few lucky days, i get big drums sticks for my meals.
fuck, and i cant stand the sight of hokkien mee, cha kway tiao and fried rice in the fucking morning for breakfast!!!!

its fucking disgusting, thank god there is still bread for me which i'm still able to choke it down.
seriously, my fucking diet food is much more better than those meals served in tekong with so much gravy and make me feel lik puking after eating. fucked up!

right,
its just 12hours from now that i'll be in tekong with my parents.

today has been a really emotional day for me
accompanied my girl for almost 1/2 of the day, helped her assemble a new table, eat our lunch/dinner together, enjoying the time we have before i enlist tomorrow.

shes been the girl that is always by my side for almost 1.5yrs, going through most of the ups and downs in my life last year.

maybe this explains why i feel so sad when i left her just now.

i'll miss ya baby!!

another thing that has been bothering me is bodybuilding
how the fuck am i gonna train in there? how the fuck am i gonna eat in there?? how the fuck am i gonna survive starving through the day???

it sucks to the core that it takes months to gain every ounce, every pound of muscle, but to lose it just takes merely a few weeks or days
i dunno how the fuck am i gonna handle it

people can laugh at me for all they wan when i shrink or become fat, but i'll be back for redemption in a while!
i swear!!
fuck!


as i packed my stuff yesterday, it seems very little actually if you follow by the list given, but not for me man.
i'm bringing in 2 tins of oats, 1 tub of protein and a box of Oreos , hopefully i can make full use of them and save my body!


anyway, heres pics of my last day at work
thanks Jenny for bringing her digicam on that day!

Jenny with me and the big fish! Kimmy!
customer's favourite girl!

Jian Hong!
one of the jokers who i fool around with in the kitchen..
JianHong, Shaun, Jenny and May!
With our good supervisor Justin who orders my favourite 'nata de coco' for us to eat! and now he doesnt have to worry bout his salmon everyday. cos i'm no longer there!

My favourite area.
i'll miss it.. serious...
fish n co, although very stingy but a really nice and memorable place to work at.
=)

as i blog this post, i feel so depress yet fustrated at the same time, i hate NS, i dunno how am i gonna love it man.
dont tell me NS is to mature me or serve the nation for pride and honour, i dont need these bullshit to grow me up.
fuck it man.

take care everyone and i'll be back soon!
BYE!

Last Day @ Work

yup, yesterday's my last day at work
i recalled the time when i told LCP that i'll work at fish n co till my NS, and indeed its true.

2.5years have passed and i'm now getting ready for enlistment next friday. theres just so many memories of the place, i'll definitely miss fish n co jurong point!

many many great frens that i've made and the jokes we shared while working, all these will serve as great memories and hopefully years down the road, we'll gather and catch up with each other again.

yesterday was also the first day at work that i took so many pictures with frens with the instant camera, all along i only had 1 pic of me in the whole collage of pictures at the entrace, but now.. i've got a total of 4!!
best is there are still many pics taken with frens digital cam and hp!

HAHAHA

so far, i've only got 2 pics which i'll share with you guys that are taken with my hp. i'll upload others when i receive it!

only a couple pics
the office which i'll always go in and slack under the aircon

Small grill/Big grill
My favourite working station.
the place where i'll stand and eat my meals while working
the place where i'll cook my salmon to eat
99% i'm always with this 2 grill
sorry, have to part with you now
i'm sure you'll be taken care of nicely too.
=(

besides idiots who doesnt work properly, its been a really great and pleasant working experience with everybody.
I'll Miss You, Fish n Co Jurong Point!!


oh ya, gotta thank LCP for introducing me this job.
not for him, i wont have the chance to work there and i may not be who i am today with the trophies in my house
no money = no bodybuilding


anyway,
heres a picture at Yen Kiat's 21st Birthday Party last friday.

1 week away from NS
i'm really depress now
a few more updates in the next few days and i'm gone.
damn!
fuck fuck fuck!

spent my saturday eating and having fun
bukit timah market satays, carrot cake and sugar cane drinks.

10 sticks chicken
10 sticks pork
should have tried some mutton.

guess satay is my favourite food now!
as you can see, im enjoying my fucking life off now!
fucking NS!

Swedish Meat Balls!

went Ikea on sunday with my little girl, bought a few stuff for her room and had our dinner there!
first was hotdog buns followed by meat balls!
i swear i've never eaten these for years!
its time for me to feel fat again before i diet again!
HAHAHA


just got this pic
Vincent & me @ CDANS Bodybuilding Championships did his colouring for him that day
turn out pretty decent and nice
=D


the clock is indeed ticking very fast
like LCP hav said a few weeks passes damn fast
its now 3wks away only.
HOLYSHIT!!