something is missing in my life for these upcoming 5 days...

and i'm missing her even though its not even 1 day yet.

so far far away from me!

damn...

hopefully time passes fast this week!

just got back from arms training

shiok man
able to train 5 days a week is a blessing to me
current weight is fluctuating between 99kg-99.5kg
just a few more grams to 100kg!
HAHAHA!

cant wait for tomorrow night to come

gonna go fry my legs and make my calves grow tomorrow!
=D

today is sunday but i dont even have the mood to have fun
must prepare all my uniform
must polish my damn boots
but fuck care already, polish till i tulan, using liquid kiwi these days.
fucking shiok man...

easy peasy...
MUAHAHAHAHAHA
"if you are not cheating, you are not trying"

transformers is fucking nice

watched it with my girl ytd
damn, hopefully there will be another one in the near future again.
=D

anyway
im officially undergoing the weapon technician course.. so cool man, 12 guns for me to learn, repair and explore but it is a bitch when it comes to cleaning.
but afterall, im still pretty happy to be as a weapon tech instead of repairing those shitass tanks.

been watching michael jackson's videos lately
just find its really a pity that hes gone just like this and i didnt learn to appreciate his songs until he was gone. after listening songs after songs of his, i truely respect this genius as one of the best ever and he'll be my idol from now on.
guess i gonna learn moonwalk and use it in my competition posing routine next time...

HAHAHA

every song of his comes with a sensational feeling
every move of his on stage is fucking slick and sweet.

guess there wont be anyone that can come close to what he achieved.
R.I.P

bodybuilding, my girl and army

trying to balance everything out now too; its tough but i believe i can do it.

first week at my new vocation
nothing of a woo-ha

so many breaks are given to us daily
9am - teabreak

12pm - lunch

3pm - teabreak
5.30pm - book out!
at least im able to consume my meals now, and i've been packing meals there since day 1.
=)

anyway
i'm back in the gym training hard again

current weight is 95kg
its the good old bulking phase and i wish i can make full use of it, although army may be a factor hindering my progress, but fuck it. i will do it for whatever it takes.

lets see if im able to do it to reach 100kg..
i'm back for redemption!
HAHAHA

alright,

back from a long break and its time to report back next monday. So far i've enjoyed my block leave and i hate going back to camp.
training and eating normally again then suddenly it may be disrupted again...

damn shit feeling.
no wonder coach once said

"you'll be losing muscle and gaining fats in the army"

how true... fuck it...

anyway,
i'm being posted to Ayer Rajah Camp as a technician which is to repair tanks... The only thing that i like is its stay out which means i can go home everyday and hopefully hit the gym too. the only thing which i hope wont happen frequently is late release from camp!

HAHAHA

oh ya!
another problem i got is my meals... !

i know im fucking picky and troublesome but i just hate it when my diet gets mess around like fuck.. Heard from my fren that there will be tea-breaks in the morning and another in the late afternoon, if that is for real i'll get to bodybuild like i use to already..

3 meals will be easily solved in there!

shall not have so high hopes yet, go in see see first...
guess i shall not complain much since i get to sleep on my own comfy bed every night!!
WOOOO!!

P.O.C LOH!

finally BMT had come to an end...

as much as i hate NS, i cant deny that i've made several good friends in there and enjoyed the stay with them through the 7weeks.

field camp was seriously the shit!
4days in the forest, eating whatever i can, 2 packs of combat ration at one go. some wont even eat and pass it to me, yup, it taste bad but it wont hurt me either. i am what i am now with a reason and i dont fucking care how bad it taste, i'll choke it down just for the sake of getting the calories in to at least try my best to maintain whatever i have. thats who i am and what i live for....

the best part of BMT is when we trashed other companies during games day, we were the champions for tug of war and the champions for mascot competition. shame on those guys who looked down on us as PES C!
especially those mohawk guys, irritating faggs.
HAHAHA

so here i am, with 2 weeks of leave before i get posted to my new unit. finally i can get a huge BREAK from those junk food in tekong. but i still gotta thank my friends/buddies who 'donated' their bits and pieces of meat to me every meal.

as for now, i'll be going back to my usual diet and training while waiting for my posting, thats the best i can do for now...
sigh....

3wks had past

4wks more to go.

i hate army, but there isnt anything i can do about it.
finally i got a confirmed status yesterday after they did an x-ray on my spine. its concluded that my spine is out of alignment from my pelvic bone.

thats what the medical officer told me.
how great!!
im officially excused from RMJ, HEAVYLOAD, UNIFORM and can only do light duties!

HAHAHAHAHAH!
hell yeah!!

next week is my field camp, 4 days 3 nights in the fucking forest... i dont know how am i gonna survive through that with all the shit food provided, but at least im aware that i will only be there to observe but not participate in the activities due to my back injury. the only thing that sucks is that i'll be feeding mosquitos there since i will only be in my t-shirt/shorts instead of uniform... hopefully no camo cream for me also
damn...


at times i'm so stressed up in the army.

i dunno why, seriously its driving me crazy at times, but i kept telling myself to go through it once and for all.
i nearly wanted to go 'Out Of Training' as i couldnt stand the shit thats going on anymore, i see 5yrs of my hardwork being wasted off in just a few weeks, how depressing it can get, nobody will understand how im feeling.
as of last week, i lost 3kg
fucking hell.
to some it isnt alot, but 3kg lost is fucking obvious on me.
fuck

i get homesick
i miss my mum
i miss my little girl
and i miss my friends along with the weights
just 4 more fucking weeks is all i had to go through and hopefully things will be better after i get posted out.

sigh....
when can i train and eat normally again....
im sick of those rubbish like food in the army, only on a few lucky days, i get big drums sticks for my meals.
fuck, and i cant stand the sight of hokkien mee, cha kway tiao and fried rice in the fucking morning for breakfast!!!!

its fucking disgusting, thank god there is still bread for me which i'm still able to choke it down.
seriously, my fucking diet food is much more better than those meals served in tekong with so much gravy and make me feel lik puking after eating. fucked up!