goodbyee 2009

a year passes real quick
back in 2008, i was still in cloud nine coming off from a victory in the junior nationals.
but now, im here feeling fucked up, desperately anticipating for my PINK IC.
a thing which im happy for is i'm so motivated to get my certification, went for the CPR course this past sunday and i'm looking forward to the next course;BEC.
though cashflow is definitely a problem, so im gonna wait for chinese new year when the angbaos come in to enroll for the next course..

so here it is, farewell 2009
its never the happiest year in my life.

why?

its a year i lose my fucking freedom to do something i hate but still cant escape from.

its a year i realise how fucking stingy the government is with the fucking low allowance yet such expensive living in this country.

its a year which really taught me to remain strong and brave through all shit just to get pass the fucking complusory 2 years.

enough of the fucking complains and although 2010 may not be any better too, but here i am, still willing to welcome the year  2010!!

had a real filling dinner at Aston's

didnt went to suntec for it, but rather a foodcourt at Yew Tee

coffeeshop pricing, restaurant quality

fucking worth it man, im loving beef

every week i make sure i get a serving of steak

loving it!

just found out theres so many festives coming up

xmas, new year's eve, anniversary

not forgetting chinese new year and valentine crash on the same day.

fuck, im just so broke these days.

maybe i'll just pick a couple of it to celebrate thats all.

:)

just applied for my CPR course

its just a step to get my ass going for fitness instructor certification.

hope all goes well, shal make use of the weekends i have to pursue something i love.

heeeeHAAAa

guess im gonna change camp or places again

they just found out that my PES status and 'job' doesnt match

damnit, im just hoping for the best right now

hopefully i'll get posted somewhere great...

it took them 2months to find out that there was something wrong...

the so called "EFFICIENCY" of the s-a-f

dont make me laugh man...

14th November

-Night Of Tunes-

 her work place performance night with the little kids/students of hers

the kids were cute and very adorable

overall the entire performancer quite good also la, they are still kids, cant expect much from them, just appreciate what they sing or play enough already, after all they are so adorable that you wont even be bothered with how bad they sing.

=D

Getting There...

106kg currently

still 4kg shy from my aim.

big, round, bloated, fat whatever you guys can call it, i wouldnt be bothered anyway.

HAHAHA

still trying ways to increase my weight, which is kinda hard due to NS, i've done everything i could keeping my budget to a minimum, guess its still an accomplishment for me to hit this weight instead of my initital aim of 110kg...

on a bright side, theres still at least 10 weeks for me to work towards my aim, before i get diet down after chinese new year!!

wooo!

=)

time passes real quick

6mths have passed
1.5yrs more to go before i get done with this so called "NATIONAL SERVICE"
had a really wonderful night yesterday with my little girl
got almost the entire night to ourselves
its been so long since we get to enjoy teeny weeny bits of our lives together
=)

i've got some plans next year

just praying hard that i'll be able to get in the HeartSaver CPR course and get certified by end of this year.

thats just the start of my plan, more to come.

all i need is money to get things done..

hopefully my parents will help me out on this...

its the good old bulking season and im at 104kg now!

just 6kg shy from my target!

feeling really heavy and round

my plan is to do a semi-dieting phase after chinese new year and plan my next move thereafter.

=)

as for NS life,

although im a PES E9L9, but im still posted to HQ Air Force Training Command as a armament technician.

initially i was so eager to revocate to be a clerk, but for now, i guess i'll just let nature take its course.

since they didnt revocate me as a clerk, i shall just continue my jobscope till new posting order comes.

hahaa

friday was my first day at HQ AFTC

althought its damn far from bukit panjang, but doesnt matter.

a direct bus to eunos from pending lrt, followed by another bus to my camp takes only an hour.

the life is pretty great at there too, stay out vocation too.

which is why i dont wish to be a clerk for now

the office for us is air-conditioned too, what more can i expect!

the only down side over there which i could think of is there isnt any early fall out, everyone goes home punctually as stated in the daily routine orders.

HAHAHA

'MJ's - This Is It'

movie is filling up damn fast, hopefully i'll be able to catch it later

damn, im so broke that i could not even do online booking.

im starting to get addicted to MJ songs too, my girl and i even felt like buying one his DVD; History on films.

but nah, didnt get it, thought the $7.50could be spend on something more useful.

=D

went to train real early this morning

despite its an off day, woke up at 6.30am and got my arse in the gym by 10am.

shiiiooookkk

and im now rotting away waiting for get a good night sleep!

=D

anyway

guess its time to settle my stuff.

its taking so damn long, you just cant trust anyone to get things done for you.

i wish to go out of course now, i dont even have the mood to work anymore.

all i think about is getting my stuff settled and get posted out quickly.
fuck damn it.

how cool it is to fufill my own dreams

 hopefully all goes well and let me train/eat and live my NS life happily ever after

no R.e.s.e.r.v.i.s.T is what im looking forward to.

=D

anyway

just found out that next year chinese new year falls on the 14 & 15th febuary

valentine's day too!

double double joy..

time passes so fast, a minute passed is a minute closer to ORD!

spent my weekends morning watching the live webcast of MR OLYMPIA 2009, as usual im a JAY CUTLER FAN!

 damn, the whole competition is so tough, almost everyone looked their best and its so hard to judge who will win.

but the moment when Jay stepped on stage, i knew hes gonna win it this time.

hes in his best shape ever compared to the years before...

a new hair cut and a new record in the history of the bodybuilding world. no one have lose and win it back again in the records.

he's not only huuuggeee but also ripped to the bone!

Jay is the man!!

one day i must go over and attend the event!

hopefully it will still be in las vegas!

=D

back home this morning from guard duty on saturday.

the only shit was its 24hrs and its so hard to pass, i read through the entire newspaper and thats how bored i am in the guardroom.
lucky i managed to bring in 3 meals of mine and 4 servings of protein shakes with oats, if not i'm definitely going to starve to death over there.

mosquitos just loves me, kept on attacking me when im sleeping.

finally this month's duty is over, hopefully it will maintain at the rate of 1-2 duties a month

=D


anyway
life is pretty great at my current camp
just found my favourite canteen
at a reasonable price with a huge serving!
western food for the win!
they even have sirloin steak and mix grill man
its going to be great for my bulking phase, damn shiok
i'm gonna be there at least once a week to get the calories in!
MUAHAHAHAHA

good old off-season...

at times i've been wondering, when can i compete again??
i wish to do it again but not now during NS, the messed up times for my meals and the little amount of allowance... sian..

so now, i decided to look at the brighter side of life and go with plans of mine for this 2yrs of NS life.

after talking to my fellow training buddies about it, decided that i'll take this 2yrs and bulk up as much as possible to pack on the mass. The reason is i know i needed to be a whole lot bigger in order to compete again in the next level, its not easy neither is it tough, i believe i can do it again!

This 2yrs will allow me to bring up lagging bodyparts of mine which i've been trying to improve on right now... so ya as of now, i'm tipping the scale at around 101kg, and im aiming towards 110kg this time round.. not sure how long it will take, but ya, i'll get to 110kg before i decide my next move!

i'm just gonna make sure, i'll be bigger and better the next time i step on stage!
yeeeeeha!!! nobody gonna stop me!!!

=D

seems like blogger has a problem when posting, theres no more templates??? cant even upload a pic up here..

anyway, it just feels so wierd to be posted to a new camp, without the welfare we used to get when we are still in the training institute. just cant wait to be attached out to somewhere nearer to my house. As for now, its just about me adapting to a new place again, i hate changes and i really hate it, luckily my diet isnt screwed upside down yet.

im so damn poor now, i dont even have the mood or rather MONEY to go to town and check ION out, i wanna buy clothes but its seriously so hard to save up these days, just meeting my girl for a decent meal on saturdays is all i could afford for now.. sighh.... 1.5weeks more for next aloowance...damn it!

3.5hours more to my little girl's 21st birthday!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY!

course is coming to an end next wednesday, cant bear to leave this place man. one of the best training institute in the army already. sian, dont even know how life will be when i get posted out. hopefully all things go well and im still able to eat sleep lift! HAHAHA!

and damn, life is bored without a camera phone. cant take pics when you suddenly wish to, cant take pics when you didnt bring your digicam. oh fuck man...

had dinner with my girl family and relatives last night

purpose of the dinner was an early celebration for my little girl 21st birthday

im like so excited the entire day man, just so afraid that i'll get clumsy and spill something or break something. although not my first time eating with her family, but its my first time with her relatives! her relatives are nice to me and introduced themselves to me la, they know me before i even know them. thats so wierd, all thanks to facebook!

HAHAHAH


right now, im feeling like a puffed up teddy bear
i've hit 102KG on the scale with my gym attire on
i feel like a fucking balloon now, i wish i could diet now, but my schedule is just so packed, i hardly got time to sit down to even read the papers during weekdays. as bad as it sounds, but im still enjoying my life as i get to do the things i love, i seriously cant complain anymore.

today is national day, but im not even feeling the atmosphere of it.
its so wierd, maybe thats what happen as the years passed and i grow older.
everything changes, im now contemplating if i should go and study again or go straight to the working society after my NS, if i were to study again, it wont be at Ngee Ann, but rather i'll try to enroll into Sports & Exercise Science in Republic Poly.
i just wish to do something i'm interested in...

shall see how it goes ba, so many things to re-consider if im back to study, need to get a part time job to survive also.
fuck it.
HOW HOW HOW???!?!?

all thanks to weekend guard duty tomorrow. i cant even enjoy my sunday. its gonna be a 24hours duty till monday morning and get back to work in the afternoon. damn... but i shall not complain so much since im lucky enough to be sitting in the office and picking up calls/issueing visitor passes. HAHAHAHA


i seriously hate it when my diet gets fucked. kept on consoling myself that it will only be for 1 day! 1 day!

something is missing in my life for these upcoming 5 days...

and i'm missing her even though its not even 1 day yet.

so far far away from me!

damn...

hopefully time passes fast this week!

just got back from arms training

shiok man
able to train 5 days a week is a blessing to me
current weight is fluctuating between 99kg-99.5kg
just a few more grams to 100kg!
HAHAHA!

cant wait for tomorrow night to come

gonna go fry my legs and make my calves grow tomorrow!
=D

today is sunday but i dont even have the mood to have fun
must prepare all my uniform
must polish my damn boots
but fuck care already, polish till i tulan, using liquid kiwi these days.
fucking shiok man...

easy peasy...
MUAHAHAHAHAHA
"if you are not cheating, you are not trying"

transformers is fucking nice

watched it with my girl ytd
damn, hopefully there will be another one in the near future again.
=D

anyway
im officially undergoing the weapon technician course.. so cool man, 12 guns for me to learn, repair and explore but it is a bitch when it comes to cleaning.
but afterall, im still pretty happy to be as a weapon tech instead of repairing those shitass tanks.

been watching michael jackson's videos lately
just find its really a pity that hes gone just like this and i didnt learn to appreciate his songs until he was gone. after listening songs after songs of his, i truely respect this genius as one of the best ever and he'll be my idol from now on.
guess i gonna learn moonwalk and use it in my competition posing routine next time...

HAHAHA

every song of his comes with a sensational feeling
every move of his on stage is fucking slick and sweet.

guess there wont be anyone that can come close to what he achieved.
R.I.P

bodybuilding, my girl and army

trying to balance everything out now too; its tough but i believe i can do it.

first week at my new vocation
nothing of a woo-ha

so many breaks are given to us daily
9am - teabreak

12pm - lunch

3pm - teabreak
5.30pm - book out!
at least im able to consume my meals now, and i've been packing meals there since day 1.
=)

anyway
i'm back in the gym training hard again

current weight is 95kg
its the good old bulking phase and i wish i can make full use of it, although army may be a factor hindering my progress, but fuck it. i will do it for whatever it takes.

lets see if im able to do it to reach 100kg..
i'm back for redemption!
HAHAHA

alright,

back from a long break and its time to report back next monday. So far i've enjoyed my block leave and i hate going back to camp.
training and eating normally again then suddenly it may be disrupted again...

damn shit feeling.
no wonder coach once said

"you'll be losing muscle and gaining fats in the army"

how true... fuck it...

anyway,
i'm being posted to Ayer Rajah Camp as a technician which is to repair tanks... The only thing that i like is its stay out which means i can go home everyday and hopefully hit the gym too. the only thing which i hope wont happen frequently is late release from camp!

HAHAHA

oh ya!
another problem i got is my meals... !

i know im fucking picky and troublesome but i just hate it when my diet gets mess around like fuck.. Heard from my fren that there will be tea-breaks in the morning and another in the late afternoon, if that is for real i'll get to bodybuild like i use to already..

3 meals will be easily solved in there!

shall not have so high hopes yet, go in see see first...
guess i shall not complain much since i get to sleep on my own comfy bed every night!!
WOOOO!!

P.O.C LOH!

finally BMT had come to an end...

as much as i hate NS, i cant deny that i've made several good friends in there and enjoyed the stay with them through the 7weeks.

field camp was seriously the shit!
4days in the forest, eating whatever i can, 2 packs of combat ration at one go. some wont even eat and pass it to me, yup, it taste bad but it wont hurt me either. i am what i am now with a reason and i dont fucking care how bad it taste, i'll choke it down just for the sake of getting the calories in to at least try my best to maintain whatever i have. thats who i am and what i live for....

the best part of BMT is when we trashed other companies during games day, we were the champions for tug of war and the champions for mascot competition. shame on those guys who looked down on us as PES C!
especially those mohawk guys, irritating faggs.
HAHAHA

so here i am, with 2 weeks of leave before i get posted to my new unit. finally i can get a huge BREAK from those junk food in tekong. but i still gotta thank my friends/buddies who 'donated' their bits and pieces of meat to me every meal.

as for now, i'll be going back to my usual diet and training while waiting for my posting, thats the best i can do for now...
sigh....

3wks had past

4wks more to go.

i hate army, but there isnt anything i can do about it.
finally i got a confirmed status yesterday after they did an x-ray on my spine. its concluded that my spine is out of alignment from my pelvic bone.

thats what the medical officer told me.
how great!!
im officially excused from RMJ, HEAVYLOAD, UNIFORM and can only do light duties!

HAHAHAHAHAH!
hell yeah!!

next week is my field camp, 4 days 3 nights in the fucking forest... i dont know how am i gonna survive through that with all the shit food provided, but at least im aware that i will only be there to observe but not participate in the activities due to my back injury. the only thing that sucks is that i'll be feeding mosquitos there since i will only be in my t-shirt/shorts instead of uniform... hopefully no camo cream for me also
damn...


at times i'm so stressed up in the army.

i dunno why, seriously its driving me crazy at times, but i kept telling myself to go through it once and for all.
i nearly wanted to go 'Out Of Training' as i couldnt stand the shit thats going on anymore, i see 5yrs of my hardwork being wasted off in just a few weeks, how depressing it can get, nobody will understand how im feeling.
as of last week, i lost 3kg
fucking hell.
to some it isnt alot, but 3kg lost is fucking obvious on me.
fuck

i get homesick
i miss my mum
i miss my little girl
and i miss my friends along with the weights
just 4 more fucking weeks is all i had to go through and hopefully things will be better after i get posted out.

sigh....
when can i train and eat normally again....
im sick of those rubbish like food in the army, only on a few lucky days, i get big drums sticks for my meals.
fuck, and i cant stand the sight of hokkien mee, cha kway tiao and fried rice in the fucking morning for breakfast!!!!

its fucking disgusting, thank god there is still bread for me which i'm still able to choke it down.
seriously, my fucking diet food is much more better than those meals served in tekong with so much gravy and make me feel lik puking after eating. fucked up!

right,
its just 12hours from now that i'll be in tekong with my parents.

today has been a really emotional day for me
accompanied my girl for almost 1/2 of the day, helped her assemble a new table, eat our lunch/dinner together, enjoying the time we have before i enlist tomorrow.

shes been the girl that is always by my side for almost 1.5yrs, going through most of the ups and downs in my life last year.

maybe this explains why i feel so sad when i left her just now.

i'll miss ya baby!!

another thing that has been bothering me is bodybuilding
how the fuck am i gonna train in there? how the fuck am i gonna eat in there?? how the fuck am i gonna survive starving through the day???

it sucks to the core that it takes months to gain every ounce, every pound of muscle, but to lose it just takes merely a few weeks or days
i dunno how the fuck am i gonna handle it

people can laugh at me for all they wan when i shrink or become fat, but i'll be back for redemption in a while!
i swear!!
fuck!


as i packed my stuff yesterday, it seems very little actually if you follow by the list given, but not for me man.
i'm bringing in 2 tins of oats, 1 tub of protein and a box of Oreos , hopefully i can make full use of them and save my body!


anyway, heres pics of my last day at work
thanks Jenny for bringing her digicam on that day!

Jenny with me and the big fish! Kimmy!
customer's favourite girl!

Jian Hong!
one of the jokers who i fool around with in the kitchen..
JianHong, Shaun, Jenny and May!
With our good supervisor Justin who orders my favourite 'nata de coco' for us to eat! and now he doesnt have to worry bout his salmon everyday. cos i'm no longer there!

My favourite area.
i'll miss it.. serious...
fish n co, although very stingy but a really nice and memorable place to work at.
=)

as i blog this post, i feel so depress yet fustrated at the same time, i hate NS, i dunno how am i gonna love it man.
dont tell me NS is to mature me or serve the nation for pride and honour, i dont need these bullshit to grow me up.
fuck it man.

take care everyone and i'll be back soon!
BYE!

Last Day @ Work

yup, yesterday's my last day at work
i recalled the time when i told LCP that i'll work at fish n co till my NS, and indeed its true.

2.5years have passed and i'm now getting ready for enlistment next friday. theres just so many memories of the place, i'll definitely miss fish n co jurong point!

many many great frens that i've made and the jokes we shared while working, all these will serve as great memories and hopefully years down the road, we'll gather and catch up with each other again.

yesterday was also the first day at work that i took so many pictures with frens with the instant camera, all along i only had 1 pic of me in the whole collage of pictures at the entrace, but now.. i've got a total of 4!!
best is there are still many pics taken with frens digital cam and hp!

HAHAHA

so far, i've only got 2 pics which i'll share with you guys that are taken with my hp. i'll upload others when i receive it!

only a couple pics
the office which i'll always go in and slack under the aircon

Small grill/Big grill
My favourite working station.
the place where i'll stand and eat my meals while working
the place where i'll cook my salmon to eat
99% i'm always with this 2 grill
sorry, have to part with you now
i'm sure you'll be taken care of nicely too.
=(

besides idiots who doesnt work properly, its been a really great and pleasant working experience with everybody.
I'll Miss You, Fish n Co Jurong Point!!


oh ya, gotta thank LCP for introducing me this job.
not for him, i wont have the chance to work there and i may not be who i am today with the trophies in my house
no money = no bodybuilding


anyway,
heres a picture at Yen Kiat's 21st Birthday Party last friday.

1 week away from NS
i'm really depress now
a few more updates in the next few days and i'm gone.
damn!
fuck fuck fuck!

spent my saturday eating and having fun
bukit timah market satays, carrot cake and sugar cane drinks.

10 sticks chicken
10 sticks pork
should have tried some mutton.

guess satay is my favourite food now!
as you can see, im enjoying my fucking life off now!
fucking NS!

Swedish Meat Balls!

went Ikea on sunday with my little girl, bought a few stuff for her room and had our dinner there!
first was hotdog buns followed by meat balls!
i swear i've never eaten these for years!
its time for me to feel fat again before i diet again!
HAHAHA


just got this pic
Vincent & me @ CDANS Bodybuilding Championships did his colouring for him that day
turn out pretty decent and nice
=D


the clock is indeed ticking very fast
like LCP hav said a few weeks passes damn fast
its now 3wks away only.
HOLYSHIT!!

been dealing with a back injury

im reluctant to go to e doctor now

guess i just have to be careful while training and wait for NS then i'll report to the medical officer!

how brilliant i am.
=D

had black pepper chicken chop at Xin Wang cafe ytd night.
i cant believe its my first time eating there also.
its to my taste and im loving it
at least its isnt deep fried.

HAHAHA


fucking NS is just spoiling my plans
theres so much things that i wanna buy but im afraid i wont be able to use or wear them frequently
guess i'll stop work 2wks before enlistment and enjoy my fucking life off. i wanna watch the new jackie's chan movie thats coming up soon! i wanna eat popcorn while watching movie also! i wanna eat sushi buffet!
as of now, its 4wks till NS.

FUCK YOU NS!
_!_

im a H.A.P.P.Y man!
2 more days of work and its a great weekend ahead!
California Pizza & Shopping with my little girl on friday!
Strongman & Bodybuilding Championships on Saturday!

hopefully all goes well!
=D

oh ya!

i can't believe its my first time at Ya Kun Kaya Toast
HAHAHA

weight is pretty much the same now
even though i'll be enlisting real soon but i'm not missing any workout sessions, not missing any meals and still sleeping plenty for recovery.
its what i love and what i wish i can live for...

sunday is always a happy day for me!
cos its arms training!
=))

hopefully when im in NS, i'll still be happy and be able to smile again like in the pictures
HAHAHA

OH YA!
and i just read the papers today
Singapore is the 10th most costly city in the world!
so true so true...
FUCK DAMN IT!

got a sorethroat now
i dont even feel lik talking much
it seems lik im losing my voice


Pics From Back Training Last Week

"Hi!"
"its time to row!"

7 weeks left to NS
which means im left with 7 times to train each bodypart
its so damn near
sighh...
=(

Happy Go Lucky

21st birthday just came n go.
had 2 simple celebrations

1 with my relatives last sunday
basically just cut cake, receive ang baos and dinner together.
they just couldnt think of what to get for me because:

1. size may not fit me
2. im not a typical guy next door
3. latest gadgets isn't something i need

therefore angbaos are the best way they got for me!
HA!

last but not least
a celebration on the day of my birthday with my girl
she got me a watch which i love
been like years since i wore a watch

a whole day spent just with her by my side
simple but im very very happy already

=)

My Cake from BAKERZIN
ultra-delicious ice-cream like choc cake

Oops!
my hands are just too big that i grab it all!
MUAHAHAHA